combination speed and wodka

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I' ve used speed occsionally for more than 10 years (now I'm 31) but since I broke up withe my boyfriend I use speed every day and I drink half a bottle wodka with it.. I don't know what's happening to me.. I lost control, I really think that I'm slipping away in my combination of drugs and alcohol and it scares me


Yesterday, after many months, the combination of both resulted in an explosion of agression and me braking every piece of glass I could find to finally cut myself with it, just to get out the anger inside me. I'm really worried because everything is going the wrong way in such a short time


please, can anyone give me some advice?