I figured instead of making my own thread I would post here. I'm also about 8 days of being off Suboxone
(I never cared for AA, 12 steps, or keeping track of how long I've been clean).
I was EXTREMELY fortunate, and always have been, in the sense my withdrawals never lasted more than 2 or 3 days, and the only real symptoms I ever got were the diarrhea and (the worst feeling/symptom on earth) restless leg syndrome (also, is there such a thing as restless arm and chest syndrome? Basically the same exact feeling only in your arms and chest?). So I'm about 5 or 6 days free of withdrawals and feeling unbelievably depressed. I've also noticed a significantly increased sex drive, and overall range of emotions. I was binge watching Netflix and ranging from crying over things that wouldn't have phased me on subs, to laughing at things that would have annoyed me, or I would have found corny before.
I can't stop thinking about opiates
. During the suboxone "treatment" (just trading one opiate
for another, DONT waste your time on suboxone, it's TERRIBLE) I never once relapsed or cared about taking the pain killers, I missed not having euphoria
for 4 years but it didn't bug me that much.
Now I think of opiates like I lost my best friend. I think of taking a percocet and I want to cry. I feel pangs in my stomach (butterflies) like I do thinking of friends I've lost. It's pathetic. I know this is PAWS
. I know it will get better. I know exercise and water help. So what? What do I do NOW?
Not trying to derail your thread here, just figured instead of making a very similar thread I would just put my thoughts and feelings here.
To the OP and anyone else going through this, I really wish you the best of luck. To anyone who might stumble on this who isn't yet addicted to opiates GET OUT NOW WHILE YOU CAN. I know it seems to get rid of depression, and your anxiety, but the day will come when you want to stop (or have to) and you'll only feel worse. I miss the person I used to be.
Anyway, I guess my point is what can I do in the now to make this better? Some Xanax
would be nice because I'm only getting about 2 or 3 hours of sleep a day if I'm lucky.
AD25 added 2 Minutes and 39 Seconds later...
Don't mean to double post but can't find an edit button.
Tip: Aleve is the best for the body aches.