I have read, re-read and read this thread again - I can't see the "a-hole post" that you refer to. Divergent views and critique are part and parcel of existence. Each situation will be viewed in a light unique to the individual facing it - this goes for your chosen method for getting off methadone
, as well as for my thoughts regarding said method.
Despite having re-read it I can't find any mention of the original cause of being prescribed methadone. You mention pain and a motor-cycle accident, but also addiction
to a variety of opiates
in the past, was the 'done 'scripted for an existing addiction or for pain management?
You seem to feel the need to defend the right of each person to chose to take a substance - (paraphrasing here) when you say "I'll prob always use something, the worlds all F'd up and lots of people feel the same" - I've never asserted that moderate, non harmful (either to self or others), non intrusive substance use should be condemned - I participate in this site because I believe that there should be a large volume of accurate, sincere, non biased and up to date information available, allowing people to make an educated decision for themselves. For you to imply otherwise is simply untrue.
You say that you are keeping a "friends dad" who is a Doctor abreast of your activities and that he "tells you what to adjust and what not" - I'm amazed that someone who's bound by the Hypocrattic oath finds it acceptable to (passively) encourage your decision to abruptly cease a prescribed treatment and replace it with the intake of home-brewed opiate
containing "tea" of an unknown strength - knowing the weight of each cup/"dose" is not the same as knowing what you're actually taking each time.
Wanting to live a life free of opiates - or at least free of the chains of addiction - is commendable and something to be encouraged in anyone who longs for it. I can't fathom what it is you are aiming for, to be off the methadone but free to use other opiates when you fancy it? To use PST for the rest of your life to manage pain? To use PST to get over the 'done withdrawals so you can get a new 'script for morphine
? There is so much going on in this thread it's a struggle to keep clear what is being strived for.
I do indeed know many people who have attempted to switch from one opiate to another as a way to get over the WD's they would suffer if they simply stopped any/all intake. Every single one of them has failed. I include myself in that "many". I've seen people go from H to codeine
, take codeine for a while and then go back to the H once they had ridden out the worst of the WD's. I've seen people go from methadone to sparing use of H to ease their sufferings and end up addicted to H and after a while getting another script for 'done/sub to get off the H again. Then of course there are the hundreds of thousands of people who have switched from H/DOC
to sub/methadone and ended up hooked on their 'substitute' substance for years on end.
Opposing this are the successful tapers I've borne witness to, with both sub and methadone, I've seen people decrease their dose over time, in concert with their Dr/key worker, down it goes and their resolve and belief increases exponentially, when its time for the final reduction to zero - everything is in place for this transition and it's only a small step to being truly clean. This method was not plucked out of thin air and put to use as a "one size fits all" workhorse for the masses. It is the cumulative result of decades of trial and error. Nothing is guaranteed and each person will have a unique experience but the basic tenants of this way are universally accepted, requiring only minor adjustments to fit the participant, and this universality is because it's proven in its effectiveness.
You're free to do as you wish, of course you are. I cannot pretend to agree with your method and would always encourage people who wish to get clean to utilise the plethora of available help, help proven to work over many a year and many a trial. Being so quick to imply a lack of experience/knowledge/understanding on my part is a knee jerk reaction that just doesn't ring true. I'm a firm believer in being able to "just say know" and I don't doubt for a moment that, even if this works for you, the way you are attempting to reach your goal is not one that could be recommended in good conscience to an other.
Try to keep the angry hasty personal barbs down as it grows tireso