Ya, so, I'm an opiate junkie... Who knew? Not me. I had no clue I was a junkie when I first tried oxycontin about 10 months ago. I traded a dime bag of weed for a 40mg pill. I didn't even know what oxycontin was at the time. Without delay, I crushed it up with my lighter, chopped it a bit with my bank card, rolled a bill up and hooted the whole in a second.
Oh, what a f*cking rush. Nothing will ever compare with that first time. I sat back on the couch with a huge grin on my face as after a moment I was hit with a f*cking freight train of euphoria. This is what I always imagined what people meant when they shot up heroin. The f*cking rush! Oh my god, everything was just fine with me for the next few moments.
After the rush died down, I was certainly buzzed unlike ever before. I began to drive to my girlfriend's house. On the way, I started feeling nauseous and actually had to rush to the bathroom upon arrival, at which point I definitely hurled.
The rest of that night is foggy, but since then it's been a f*cking mission to me. Retrieving opiates, doing opiates, finding money for opiates. Since that night of OC, I've done morphine, fentanyl, heroin, Roxycontin, and more OC whenever I can get my hands on it. It's f*cking up my life big time and I'm drowning in debt. I've done all the stereotypical things to score: lying, stealing, borrowing money left and right. It's not pleasent and it's going to blow up in my face soon, I know it.
Right now I'm miserable because it's been 4 days since any opiates. I had some heroin last Thursday, and now I'm feeling like shit. I hate withdrawal, but I know it's for the best. If not to quit, but to lower my tolerance so I don't have to spend as much when I score next. If you'd like to read more about this self-torture, feel free to read my blog. Link below.
http://bonkers419.blogspot.com/
P.S. This is one f*cked up smiley.
(in more ways than one)
30-01-2006, 22:02
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