I didn't want to make this about myself, but I can't thank you guys enough. I tear up at the genuine advice and knowledge you guys bring.
To answer some questions:
I use very little normally, around 3-4 grams daily. Though a couple of times when I ordered bulk from the internet, I'd use 10-15.
I don't try to use kratom
to fill the void, but it just happened and I fell into the cycle. Last month around this time I would scoff at the idea of kratom, now it seems like it's the only thing that can help me. Everyday I take it, regret it, and tell myself at night that tomorrow I won't buy. But it's been happening everyday for the past 2 weeks like this. I hurt so badly emotionally, I regret so much with my girlfriend, and I long after her, meanwhile beating myself up with using kratom.
Does she do drugs
? Only caffeine
, which she considers the normal drugs (she doesn't even refer to them as drugs). Anything outside of that, she knows nothing about, and judges very critically. Hence, I believe she never understood that kratom wasn't very dangerous. I tried having discussions with her to illustrate that her drug
of choice (alcohol) is in many, many ways more damaging than my drug of choice.
As for kratom being a great daily drug, I have to disagree with you strongly brother. In my experience, I have very little experience with strong, illegal drugs. I may know very much, but I haven't experienced that much (cocaine
are the only illegal drugs I've ever ingested). So for someone who may have had a heroin
habit, I can see kratom being a good daily drug, to maintain themselves away from much more damaging drugs. However, kratom does have an addiction
potential. I remember telling myself in the beginning that it's "my mind thinking it's addicted". But I realized it's addictive, because I never longed for kanna
the next day I've used them like I do with kratom. Second, it wasn't a good daily drug for me because I'd get tired and blank minded. I'd ease into the euphoria
, and stop relying on having fun, and being productive and social. I'm very animated and crazy sober, I love parties and socializing. But on kratom, I'd be tired and boring, much to the dismay of my girl (well, ex). Also, the sexual dysfunction hurt me, and it took like 4-5 days for my penis to start working well after a long kratom binge.
Anyways, I'd like to get more stories on you guys and your partners with this crazy drug we all love, kratom.
(I just had to point out what incredible guilt I have talking bad about kratom. Even though it's affected me negatively, I always for some reason feel like I have to defend the plant. I don't get it)