I got a kinda interesting story.. I think anyways. Three years ago, I did a lot of MDMA
pills, and I had a good connect. She sold me these brown coloured capsules. One day, I got 10 MDMA's, and this time they were white... THey lasted longer and werent as euphoric. Every time I picked up, they were still white... Sooner or later I realized they were speed pills, but I kept taking them anyways, because I liked them and was probably addicted anyway.
One day I go to order up 10 speed pills, she brings em and...... UH OH... they were brown... MDMA.... which is all fine and dandy, but Im an addict
now, I need my speed damnit! So my speed source was gone. I could have given up and put it behind me, but instead I told myself "I need a replacement"... Speed caps are hard to come by around here, but I knew I could easily find meth
/ice... So i tracked down a dealer and the rest is history.
I kinda knew what I was getting into tho actually. I was really depressed, and was going through some shit when I discovered the speed pills and I basically planned it out that I was going to just kill the pain and start popping lots of these newly discovered white pills. I realized then that I will definitely become addicted...
Its weird tho, even when I was around 16 or 17 I always thought Id end up becoming an addict of some kind, and I was always okay with that fact... The whole lifestyle just seemed cool and fun to me. I knew of course it wasnt all fun and games, but I was willing to deal with the detriments. Today Ive been addicted three years and I gotta say, I enjoy being tweaked out all day... One day I might feel differently, but Ill deal with that day when it arrives... For now Im just goin with it, and not caring about the future.
I know it may seem kinda dumb, but Im not confused, or uneducated or naive. I knew and still know exactly what I've done to myself.
Im in the thick of it, and I manage to uphold my lifestyle, and Im not depressed... The amount of money I blow doesnt get to me... I just smoke another bowl and keep on truckin.