For the past 9 or 10 months, SWIM
has been drinking alcohol
like water. There were few days in this span where SWIM was not getting drunk, often in the daytime as well. On a tame night he probably consumed 8ish units of alcohol. Often these would stretch into 15-20ish units in a night (he weighs 130 lbs mind you.) He blacked out more times than he can possibly count and did many stupid things (pissing on the floor he shared with roomates, injuring himself countless times by falling, headbutting his best friend in the face, pissing his bed numerous times, etc... you get the point.) It got to the point where SWIM was drunk so often he couldn't do any of his favorite hobbies such as playing guitar, painting, or reading. He COULD write but it came out somewhat incoherent. SWIM basically isolated himself from all his friends, the only reason he was not kicked out of the house was because he's known them since childhood and they were very patient with him, even though he was a major asshole every day.
SWIM then began reading about Kratom
and how it was successful in replacing opiate
addiction. He mainly wanted to try this kratom because he knew he loved opiates
already. Then he began wondering if it could also replace his alcohol consumption. He ordered 4 ounces of Bali leaves. SWIM began making tea using around 5-8 grams. The first day of using kratom, SWIM drank. It was very difficult for him to quit cold turkey
. But, SWIM continued using kratom and is now on his fourth day of not having ANY booze
whatsoever. This is absolutely unheard of for him. When he is under the influence of kratom, that tension that urges him to get completely shitfaced is simply gone.
SWIM is back to doing all his favorite hobbies, he is on great terms with all of his friends, and is not waking up to being still drunk and then hungover for the rest of the day until he drinks to the point of memory lapse.
Now, SWIM realizes this is actually a very short period of sobriety, but it is still something that SWIM strongly feels could not have happened without kratom use. He also realizes that replacing one drug
with another is an awful walk about, but he feels the kratom habit is much less threatening and is definitely more feasible for an every day existence.
SWIM will keep this thread updated with his experiences and substance use. Hopefully it can help people out there trying to get a grip on their blacked out life.
p.s. SWIM would like to thank FenixDelta753 for helping him with all of his questions and issues through this transition. His help is greatly appreciated.