My story and experiences on ecstasy (Part

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WARNING:</font> This is my PERSONAL story and
experiences on ecstasy and I have my own views and opinions on it which
I’m stating in my story. You have the right to agree or disagree with
what I say because not all opinions and experiences are the same. This
article is not for everyone, so if you already don’t like the idea of
reading about someone’s personal experience with a drug, then leave and
go do something productive instead. I’m writing this just for everyone
to see how powerful this drug is and so that people can make the right
choices about it and be responsible users if they are going to be using
it. Most of you have had your first time and experiences and many know
what it feels like, so feel free to post your own experiences and
respond in accordance to my article.





MY STORY – How SWIM got hooked on E



SWIM's life has never been the same anymore ever since taking that
first hit of MDMA (ecstasy). SWIM thought nothing of that drug as he
gladly accepted to give it a try at his FIRST rave (which also happened
to be a massive). SWIM did it just because "everyone else was doing
it". SWIM didn't give it any second thought and in the heat of the
moment from all the peer pressure, he also forgot about all of his
morals that he always had about drugs. SWIM bought a cap of ecstasy
from some random dealer that he found at that rave and popped it.
INTENSE peer pressure made SWIM do it and he was happy that he popped
it and totally forgot about it... when 45 minutes later... the
drug took CONTROL OVER his ENTIRE brain. SWIM could not stop dancing
all night and had the MOST AMAZING TIME OF HIS ENTIRE LIFE -
experiencing a variety of different feelings and emotions -
amplified and made 500 times stronger than in real life. After
the rave was over and the pill's "magic" was gone, SWIM was really
tired and had no energy left. SWIM was also REALLY depressed because
the "good times" were over and he no longer felt the ecstasy paradise.
The next day, after getting some good sleep, SWIM reflected back and
recalled all the good moments that happened at that rave but forgot
that he took ecstasy that night.



Some time later, SWIM started attending more raves (mostly
undergrounds) but he never had the same amount of fun as he did that
one night at his first rave. SWIM realized that something was missing
from his last few rave experiences and then remembered why he felt so
GREAT at his first rave - it was the ecstasy that he took.
Little did SWIM know… he was MENTALLY ADDICTED to ecstasy. SWIM
started having cravings and mental “lust” towards taking that drug
again in order to experience the “good times” again (FIRST REAL sign of
addiction). SWIM also started thinking about it more and more and
couldn’t wait until the next big massive would roll around the corner.



Finally the “glorious” moment came – a massive rave was due that night.
SWIM came prepared this time… he actually bought a cap AHEAD of time
this time because he was planning on doing it. As midnight strikes,
SWIM pops the cap and then an hour later he starts rolling pretty hard.
The incredible feeling repeats itself again all through the night as
the first time that SWIM did E, but 3 hours later it starts to wear
down on him. HOWEVER, SWIM finds another random dealer right at that
rave and buys ANOTHER cap and pops it as he’s coming down from his
first one (SECOND REAL sign of addiction). SWIM got high again and
rolled pretty hard for another 2 hours and when he came down again he
felt like utter shit because the “thrill” was over again. Feeling
all sad and depressed for a few days after – SWIM realized that he is
addicted to the INCREDIBLE sensation that ecstasy gives him and started
planning other future events at which he could take E (THIRD and FINAL
REAL sign of addiction). That is how SWIM got caught in the trap of
the ecstasy trend - first thinking that it is nothing major and that he
can do it just that one time and forget about it – and ending up being
a SLAVE to the pill, constantly and non-stop thinking about taking
another hit in order to feel the emotions and have that empathetic
experience.



SWIM’s story is one of many real life stories about first trying
ecstasy and then becoming addicted to it due to its power and ability
to alter a person’s way of thinking about life. There is no physical
addiction as the body doesn’t depend on it after you take it once or
twice, but there is a STRONG mental and psychological addiction to its
wonderful effects. One pill of E and 2 hours of its effects is like one
full year of anti-depression treatment (if you have a positive
experience from it of course). However, it is never guaranteed that you
will ALWAYS get a positive experience from it, and that’s what SWIM has
already experienced. One cap can make you feel incredibly good
and/or extremely bad – all in the SAME pill. SWIM would not
recommend anyone to even THINK about trying ecstasy if anyone has
depression or any clinical conditions as it may harm you for the rest
of your life. SWIM was mentally stable when he first tried E, and he
still is, in fact… SWIM is now MORE mentally stable because he takes
his experiences and applies them to his personal life and tries to see
how he can “LIVE his life as IF it were a drug – without the actual
drug”. SWIM is having success in changing his daily lifestyle and
living a more active and interesting life ever since taking his first
ecstasy, but SWIM still cannot get the cravings and the mental lust out
of his brain as he already has caused permanent damage in that area of
his brain. The feelings and emotions that SWIM has once experienced
will NEVER leave his mind, and the tendency to want to repeat those
experiences will always stay with him… FOREVER. SWIM dreams a lot about
taking E, thinks about it constantly during the day, talks about it
with his friends a lot, reads and studies a lot about it, and generally
lives a life that seems to be completely influenced by it.



As SWIM thinks back and tries to figure out whether it was worth taking
that first cap of E at his first rave – he cannot quite figure it out.
WITHOUT E, life would seem pretty boring and SWIM would never have been
able to feel so close and connected with the world; but WITH E, SWIM is
having troubles not thinking about his past wonderful experiences with
it and wonders whether it is worth living a life which is controlled by
an external force – one that is called ecstasy.





My friends, fellow ravers, guests and visitors of this board, and
anyone else who read my story – please take it into consideration and
tell others about it. Ecstasy is not something that will leave you
unharmed – as long as you do it RESPONSIBLY and LEARN from it each time
you do it. Do not take its power for granted.



Peace out.





P.S. Part 2 (which is going to be a resesarch article on the do's and
don'ts of E) is coming soon as I’m still putting together all my
research and observations on ecstasy and will be writing it up in the
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