Questions about ego loss

[insanity]

egoloss sometimes scary because if ur in a social
situation u might know how to act because ur mind is so
far out from what u normally would act like if ur ego
were in the way. but egoloss provides for some good
insight and spiritual outlook on life.

[prospero]

I frequently get ego loss on high doses of Ketamine and, strangely, mushrooms. For me it is very confusing - I lose my sense of self which then stops me relating properly to anything or anyone around me. I spend the entire experience trying to work out just what the hell is going on (in the case of Ketamine I'm also unconscious, which means thatI haven't got anything to try and relate to anyway). Time is also a meaningless concept, so I can't relate to things that happened to me 'before' ego loss. Memories also therefore have no meaning. I know I've taken drugs but what does 'taken' mean if there's no 'before'? Unfortunately I find the entire experience useless, and come back from it with nothing gained at all. Pity.