What have i done to myself???

[ToxicWaste]

My first time i took 3 pills and the time of my life.. everything was just fun. the comedown wasnt bad at all. The second time wasnt so good...


The second time i ate 8 pills over 3 days. The last day i took 4 and i didnt eat much that day. The pills was contaminated (pink superman pills) suspect serotonin syndrome. I was puking and drinking water the whole night, and my face looked really fucked up, a friend of mine called me a monster,and i used tobe goodlooking.the next week i felt strange. I felta slight rolling feeling the whole week.iwas so wasted, i hadpanic attacks so severe that i thought my heart was gonna blow out.


Now i have marks in my face for the rest of my life i think. Its like every muscle that forms the face has been cut offPeople have asked me if i wear maskara. and my chins dropped 2 cm down and my wholemouth has moved a little forward.my eyelids kindahangs out and i really look weird. when i shut my eyes i also move the part under my eyes upwards. my eyes feels constantly over-"used", tired kinda and i have totally blank eyes.


Im still sweating on my hands and it starts to annoy me. I dont wanna sweat on myhands for the rest of my life. when i look at my self in the mirror i look really ugly in some light settings. And in other light settings i just lookbluntwith innocenteyes. A guy asked me if i had looked my self in the mirror lately, i looked weird he said. Another time a girl told me i was very cute and asked me if i was gayAll this really depresses me.i justwant my old face back!. I actually feel very fine in my head, no problems there, its just the got damn face.


I have slight memory problems but its getting better i think. It was 2 months sincet that crap happened. it feels like im the only one in the world who is subbing about negative changes in the face. Are there similary stories out there?


Now i know why drugs is illegal, but if it hadnt been, bad pills would never had existed

[whatwhybecause]

there are similiar stories out there, but it's rare. your story really does sound like you've simply ODed too quickly, it being your second time and you were doing pills over a course of more than one night.


it's not recommended that you do pills for more than one 'roll' as their shortterm effects wear off almost as soon as you comedown and taking more after that simply will not regain that effect.


there's no way that this can be related to serotonin syndrome as that occurs when there is an influx of serotonin in the brain; mdma eats away at your serotonin levels, therefore this cannot be the solution.


go to a doctor, preferably at a hospital as local gps really do not have a clue on the whole, and seek proper medical advice. they will probably be able to diagnose the problem, but curing them is probably simply down to allowing your body to reformulate itself - rest, that's all you can do.


good luck, i'm sure you'll be fine.

[Tony Blair]

"When you lose, don't use the lesson".



Lesson: 3 Day binges suck.



You'll be ok in a while. Healthy diet, Vitamin supplements, excercise, plenty of sleep.

[billyloner]

yeah i dont think itll have been serotonin syndrome. unless you were taking certain antidepressants? i remember reading somewhere that some kinds in combination with e can cause it. more likely what happened is that you didnt eat properly for 3 days, nor sleep properly for 3 days, and you took what could be considered an excessive amount of e. especially for a beginner. agree with megalev - sleep, be healthy. you could try a doctor but im not so sure whether theyd tell you anything else. maybe worth a shot though if its bothering you that much, just to be sure...

[bowlingforcindy]

2 day pill binge sucsk. at the very least you should of just waited till the next weekend.

i had loads of pills one night and after about 6 hours the pills had no more ffect on me. even though i was snorting em and puttin em down me throat every 15 minutes.

[RollinBallz18]

Originally Posted by bowlingforcindy

2 day pill binge sucsk. at the very least you should of just waited till the next weekend.

i had loads of pills one night and after about 6 hours the pills had no more ffect on me. even though i was snorting em and puttin em down me throat every 15 minutes.

That is because MDMA is a weird weird drug, After a while even the same night yout body gets used to the MDMA very quickly, and it builds up a tolerance... thats why you should do it like once a month and only take 1-2 pills......

[Toria]

no offense...BUT WHAT WERE YOU THINKING TAKING SO MANY? If you're gonna use drugs, you have to be smart about it.