Do you believe in Addiction?

[jok3r]

Recently something has changed in SWIM... He used to never believe in addiction, or chemical inbalance. Fuck that shit. He always thought that in the end, the what one ultimately did was their own choice. SWIM smoked ciggerettes, weed, rolled face, and did other various drugs, like benadryl, almost every form of DxM, and drank every now and then. SWIM decided it was time to pull his shit together... school was basically a drag, where it used to be work, and SWIM forgot how to have fun without having a drug in front of him...

Always burnt out, always thinking about the next time mary jane would chill with him... It disgusted SWIM. It was enough... SWIM had already ditched mad people to smoke a blunt... and other shit along those lines...

SWIM had always heard it was so hard to quit ciggz, alcohol binges, weed, and other various drugs. They always said, "You won't understand until your time comes"... And that was the disgusting and scary truth.

SWIM... almost didn't know what to do with himself. Smoking was an everyday thing, and SWIM didn't have a replacement. SWIM always wanted a boge, and to stop other things, ranged into DxM and Benadryl. After a series of bad trips SWIM pretty much broke down. It was like... the worst burnt out feeling ever. One would never think you would ever feel this shitty... SWIM can't sleep without waking up in a pool of sweat, dreaming broken dreams, sleeping restless nights. SWIM got colder and colder... and a week later felt like he was going to have a heart attack. Anger also sinks in... lifing weights doesnt release the tension anymore. SWIM literally resorted to busting his knuckles on concrete...

2 weeks pass... It has been 2 weeks since SWIM has stopped. sick of hiding the truth... And SWIM couldnt be happier then ever. swIm has actually been more naturally happier. swIm is able to chill with his other straight edge friends without a drug nearby, and swIm am clean.

The reason I came here, and told you my pretty emo sounding story was, i wanted to know... are there others out there that feel like this ?

Do you believe in addiction, and chemical inbalance?

Do you believe one could control themself with... cocaine, exctasy, weed, alcohol, or even a stoge in front of themself, when they know they shouldn't be doing it?

Is there a way to limit ones self without CROSSING into "sickness" and disease...?

[BuffaloBoobs]

Depression was something I never took seriously and didn't understand how people could be so distressed and unhappy.
Things definitely changed once I learned for myself. 'tis a terrible thing. If I had enemies, I would have a hard time wishing depression upon them.

As for addiction, swim has been there (primarily alcohol... it has been really bad), but it never took him as low as depression. Although, for what it's worth, drug abuse certainly helped bring swim's depression.

[jok3r]

I see... but its just weird. SWIM got naturally happier... maybe there is chemical inbalance that goes down from within.