combination speed and wodka

[unicorn]

I' ve used speed occsionally for more than 10 years (now I'm 31) but since I broke up withe my boyfriend I use speed every day and I drink half a bottle wodka with it.. I don't know what's happening to me.. I lost control, I really think that I'm slipping away in my combination of drugs and alcohol and it scares me


Yesterday, after many months, the combination of both resulted in an explosion of agression and me braking every piece of glass I could find to finally cut myself with it, just to get out the anger inside me. I'm really worried because everything is going the wrong way in such a short time


please, can anyone give me some advice?

[perpel budz]

okay I think it is time to take drastic measures you have to quit the speed I have seen too many people's lives ruined by that shit. at first it will be very hard to break the addiction but i will let you in on a secret weapon to stop the cravings try a small amount of heroin along with lots of caffeine





glad to be at your service

[GlassPrincess]

wow thats amazingly scary... its cliched i know, but doing speed and drinking everyday or even as a temporary way to solve your problems is so not that way to go about things! like yeah when your on it and for a bit you feel peachy and everything is great, but what about when you come down? you feel like fuckin shit, and like you said, you finally had enough and just pretty much had a breakdown. thats all drugs and alcohal will do. thats why its so bad when people use drugs as an escape because its wonderful while your on it but when you come down to the real world instead of the problems you had before they are just amplified to like hell!


you say youve done speed for 10 years so obviously you know or have an idea on how this personally affects you and messes with your mind and emotions, and when youre dealing with something as heartbreaking as a breakup, its going to fuck you up. as we can clearly see it has.


basically you just need to talk to someone, or get this out of your system in some way shape or form... and not by doing drugs/drinking.... talk to someone you know cares about you, or maybe even just talk to your ex about whats going on if you feel comfortable enough to do that? and maybe am crossing the line, but maybe a psychiatrist or theoripst could help-if your at allembarrassed or afraid to say anything, talk to someone who knows shit about you, that way they cant judge you and if they do, whats it matter?


i dont know you or anything about you and im not going to pretend to have the solution for you, but if you ever need to talk feel free to pm me, just letting you know you have someone to talk to thats here to listen


hope you feel better