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Cheers guys, SWIM will jut ay what hw noticed mentally for the month when it was twice a week.

SWIM even after his initial comedown (which were getting generally worse and worse to the stage where he'd just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling until he fell asleep) was generally feeling more depressed than usual. The 'mid week blues' seemed to last most of the week until say the Friday morning when he''d start to feel fine again and then of course he'd go out to a friend's house and drop another seven pills.

SWIM started to get very paranoid and anxious about little things - SWIM never used to be afraid of the outside at night time, and was very fearless about it. Then after a couple of months SWIM would be outside having a cigarette and he would stand with his back against the wall due to fear of what might be out there - burgulars and stuff, not ghosts or anything.... SWIM lived in a quiet little village. If SWIM was walkin through a room of his house that was illuminated then he'd shut the curtains so no one could see in. It was this kind of paranoia, and the increased depression - SWIM had found himself a girlfriend and so naturally happy, but ultimately was feeling pretty low most of the time, and looking forward to the next weekend. SWIM completely replaced drinking with E/MDMA and while he wouldn't say he needed it to have a good time, it became synonyomous with it.



Well that was the psychological differences SWIM noticed, seven months later having only dosed 3 or 4 times, SWIM feels generally a lot better, the paranoia when sober has completely dissappeared and he finds it possible to be happy again. SO SWIM has realised that those psychological factors are mid term factors - last longer than the inital ones, but aren't life long.