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Update: SWIM has 2 weeks clean of meth, and things are not as she expected….. Every time in the past that SWIM has tried to give up she has felt depressed, exhausted, no energy, constant cravings, no motivation, even after 2 months. But this time SWIM is manic. Crazy manic, unpredictable manic, and doing things she will probably regret somewhere down the track, but SWIM feels fucking fantastic, like she is high.

Most of the anxiety left after about 4 days and SWIM has not been sleeping much, maybe 5 hours a night induced with Zopiclone. The Clonazepams are almost gone, but SWIM hasn’t taken one in about 4 days.

SWIM went to a naturapath on Thursday or Friday and got all the supplements below but so far she is unsure about what is doing what for her. Something in the mix is making her less manic in the mornings, which is a good thing but feels like a bad thing as SWIM is loving the manic, it feels better than any high she has ever had.

Now SWIM has been trying to understand what is going on with her cause it just doesn’t seem right that she feels this good this soon. She’s putting a lot of it down to Bipolar, but there is also the independence and taking control back of her life, not relying on drugs to make her feel good. Then there are the supplements but SWIM was feeling like this before them, except for the Taurine which SWIM was taking through e2 energy drinks, So maybe this is all Taurine buzz? Or maybe it’s the sugar and the caffeine in the drinks? Most likely a combination of it all but SWIM has done this dance before and her whole world was the total opposite of what it is right now.

A friend of SWIM’s dealer popped over last night just to say “HIGH” yeah right, he’s never been to SWIM's place before, anyway SWIM just told him “no thanks don’t need or want your shit and I’m busy so bugger off” Was not tempted in the least. That has never happened before. If it is under her nose she would never have dreamed she could say NO.

SWIM has been wanting to post this for a few days now but most of the time she has been too manic to focus and put it all together. Anyway, below are the supplements, SWIM couldn’t get any melatonin as it is ‘prescription only’ here so she will talk to her Dr later this week about maybe adding this to her concoction. The below are what SWIM was told by the naturapath to take, and SWIM has bought all the supplements, she hasn’t had the protein shake powder yet and she only took the B&C Vitamin for the first time this morning cause she thought it was overkill, and SWIM did not feel that good after this mornings doses taking B&C complex plus Ultra C plus B6 is a bit too much of something (blurry eyes, head fog) so SWIM will need to play around with supplements a bit more to get it right, any advice out there on this?

Extra B + C
Take 1 pill 1 hour before breakfast
A high potency balanced B-Complex with 500mg Non-Acid Vitamin C
Contains:
B1, B2, B3, B5, B6, B12
Calcium, Biotin, Choline Bitartrate, Folic acid, Inositol
Vitamin C

Ultra C 1000
Take 1 pill 1 hour before breakfast & 1 pill with dinner
Advanced Poly-ascorate Vitamin C Complex with Bioflavonoids
Contains:
Vitamin C
Calcium, Magnesium, Potassium
Bioflavonoids, Rosehip, Zinc

B6
Take 1 pill 1 hour before breakfast
Contains:
Pyridoxine Hydrochloride 240 mg

DL-Phenylalanine 500mg
Take 1 pill 1 hour before breakfast
Contains:
D-Phenylalanine 250mg
L-Phenylalanine 250mg

Women’s Multivitamin & Mineral
Take 1 pill with lunch

Multi Mineral
Take 1 pill with dinner

Taurine500mg
Take 1 pill 1 hour after dinner or in the evening

Cannabis Sativa 30c
Take 2 tablets 15 mins apart up to 6 doses per day for cravings as req.
HOMOEOPATHIC

Protein Shake Powder
Can substitute or be used in combination with breakfast or dinner