Okay, so this is a more upbeat post that my last one, where I was talking about how I was convinced I had this horrible problem with my health and all the doctors didn't believe me.

Well now, I've got good/bad news. The good news being that my condition is so objectively bad that the doctors can't deny something's very wrong. Specifically, obstructive sleep apnea and hypoxemia (down to 77% O2), despite having a trach.

The problem is that I've alienated every doc I' ve came into contact with. I'm concerned that they'll just leave me hanging--even if they're aware I'm right--rather than eat the amount of crow that admitting they were wrong would entail.

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Thank God 2/14 is over...the one day in which evey unattatched person feels like a pathetic loser and every person in a relationship feels as if they've been audited...

As I'm single, I've been nursing a P.L. vibe (exacerbated by copious quantities of alcohol...in my apt, so it's perfectly legal). A little more wine, a couple dozen more times through Neil Young's "(When You're On) The Losing End" and I'll close out this hideous evening by masturbating to porn while crying softly to myself...


[P.S. I was only kidding...about the crying bit.]

YES I'm gonna post this!