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Fight Club Memorable Quotes

Posted 07-01-2008 at 16:55 by Fight Club

You wake up at Seatac, SFO, LAX. You wake up at O'Hare, Dallas-Fort Worth, BWI. Pacific, mountain, central. Lose an hour, gain an hour. This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time. You wake up at Air Harbor International. If you wake up at a different time, in a different place, could you wake up as a different person?

You know why they put oxygen masks on planes? Oxygen gets you high. In a catastrophic emergency, you're taking giant panicked breaths. Suddenly you become euphoric, docile. You accept your fate. It's all right here. Emergency water landing - 600 miles an hour. Blank faces, calm as Hindu cows.

On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.

When people think you're dying, they really, really listen to you, instead of just . . . waiting for their...
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Rubberlips (part 2)

Posted 27-01-2008 at 01:11 by VincentVan

Only in her bed, among wild flowers and sharp slivers of colorful glass, became evident to me the reason why Nature choose sex as only instrument for life's evolution and betterment of the species; and why the gods always feared it and forbid it, while all demons, visionaries and rebels always used it to challenge them and to mock their power.
Only in her bed could I glimpse the might of Helen and the passion of Medea.
In her bed time would first freeze and then crumble into shiny fragments of past and future, that would finally fall, like april's rain on our sweaty, thirsting bodies.
There, in the temple of senses, space could not exist.
Matter transformed into novel sensations: juicy fruits of the games of our bodies; which, if squeezed, distilled elixirs of deep, deep pleasures.

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Rubberlips (part 3)

Posted 11-02-2008 at 19:40 by VincentVan

You see, Rubberlips was not like all the other lovers.
She was more like a virus.
She could work her way deep down to your soul; and then slowly begin to carve it and reshape it in her unmistakeable style, until you were left with a priceless masterpiece that all would admire and crave but which did'nt belong to you anymore.
She could gradually seep into your blood so that her taste would constantly be in your mouth; and once in there she would take possession of your heart and use it as a burning hot iron to brand her image in every cell of your brain.
But all this process just felt so good, so natural, so inherently perfect, that no one ever tried or even thought of fighting it.
Just like the chrysalis, scared as it might be, does not fight its becoming a buttefly.
The acorn does not fight...
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Tell me how to show me how to........

Posted 05-03-2008 at 06:05 by crispeewld1

Y am i writting to a blog? because all these crazy thoughts , there are so many I must let them out they get so noisy sometimes. And maybe cuz there is someone else inside screaming so loud to get out I just couldnt stand it anymore......
I have lived most of my 37 years somewhat ..umm just going thru the motions, on autopilot. I was married for 15 yrs to a man 14 yrs older than me, I was a faithful wife ,as far as other men/women were concerned :my affair was with a plasti baggie. This led to my current obession.. SEX. Up untill this point in my life, sex had always been just normal plain boring sex. I guess my new chemical of late- arroused parts that had been ignored - so now I fell like some kind of lil nymph that was held in chains and forced to listen to the unmistakeable sounds of complete and total pleasure of men and women,...
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Sync Ups at WPF

Posted 26-03-2008 at 18:29 by moda00
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Lots of discussion and thoughts on syncronicity (sp?) and won't get into it all, but thought I'd share a few experiences..

Meeting some fellow DFers, chances to meet with and talk to Rick Doblin and many MAPS staff and volunteers, etc. worked in perfectly with what was needed, mind states and thoughts and energy begetting energy in a perfectly aligned journey forward, coming full circle..

At the airport, rounding out the journey, I ran into another WPF attendee, someone I didn't end up getting to meet at the conference, but the meeting occurred spontaneously at the airport instead.

I also found myself sitting next to a girl on the plane. I was a bit tired, and while I think I am not usually a very judgemental person, I was quite tired and sleep deprived, and figured I would just go to sleep and not interact.....
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Your Dreams

Posted 28-03-2008 at 12:34 by sweetsugar

It doesn't matter whether you're 14 or 114, you should never give up on your dreams.Too many people do so at the first sign of any setback. You've got to have the will and determination to go on, even in the face of adversity. I think it's just human nature that if you want something with all your very being then you're probably going to have the most horrendous time trying to get it.

I liken it to climbing Everest (not that I actually have you understand). Look at what those few people who make it to the top have to go through to get there; all of the unimaginable obstacles both mental and physical they have to overcome. But then, when they finally make it, after all the anguish and exhaustion, with just about nothing left in the tank except adrenaline alone, they suddenly take that final step and there they are, standing on...
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Alex and Allyson Grey's Psychedelic Families lecture

Posted 30-03-2008 at 05:54 by moda00

Alex and Allyson Grey's Psychedelic Families lecture
March 23, 2008 Congress Center of Basel, Switzerland

Idea of "Father Knows Best" ideal American family from early-mid 1900s
-Personal history- No discussion of drugs with parents, but often surrounded by alcohol, tobacco, legal/prescription drug use, although problem use is veiled or not discussed, it is in the background

Images- Ozzy and Harriet (ideal of mom/dad/teens, happy together) vs. Ozzy Osbourne and family- both are "together" families that have caring/loving but appear very different

Consistent mischaracterization of the marijuana issue often at the root of the drug education problem- exaggerates and conflicts with what many know through experiencing or observing its reality, or some simple research (more generally...
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A Short Poem about Drug Addiction . . .

Posted 02-06-2008 at 03:12 by beena (Pipe Dreams)

Her First Love (by Beena)

Baby, when will you learn,
That the crack you burn,
Only leads to pipe dreams
And nefarious schemes

Left-wing student utopia,
Became self-destruct dystopia,
Big city lights and a future so bright
Now lay in waste

First came the highs
Then came the cries
A ten pound deal
Preferred to a meal

Languid inanition
Replaced real ambition
Days spent chasing, living room pacing
After her first pipe

Forty pounds for a quarter,
A bottle of water,
Tinfoil and ash
Was her day to day stash

Intense cerebral stimulation,
No longer masked feelings of rejection
Day to day strife, made her reach for the knife,
Walls sprayed with claret...
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3 years ago and I still feel the same.

Posted 11-07-2008 at 00:59 by purplehaze

Phaze wrote this 3 years ago, saved it in a txt file and has just revived this dead file.

Tryptamene posted in his blog something that made Phaze remember this file and he decided to blog it so everyone could read it.

Here it is in it's exact context.

"Be original: If you have to tell a lie, Know the truth.

My life suck's as it currently stands. I work constantly and let life pass me by, I guess that's what were all intended to do is let life pass us by. We all fight it and say were not going to let it happen, But in the end we all follow the system. There's not alot of way's of beating the system. Everything is setup so that we are forced to work and produced good's or product's to the mass's. Everybody is fighting over that last dollar...

The view of...
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life- update

Posted 21-07-2008 at 15:46 by moda00

Just wanted to update everyone on what is happening with me.. apologies for not having been around too much this summer, I am doing my best to help out here and there but have been unable to do as much as I would like.

I found out in mid-June that I am expecting. This will be my first child. The pregnancy was unplanned but is welcomed as a blessing and celebration of life. I consider it an honor to have the experience of helping to create a new life.

I have been very physically ill due to the pregnancy, and have had to be hospitalized a few times due to excessive vomiting and dehydration (hyperemesis gravidarum). I am on an anti-emetic (ondansetron, or Zofran) which has been helpful but doesn't solve the problem entirely.

I have also come off of the medications I was taking for my sleep disorder, including...
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Lip Service

Posted 26-07-2008 at 12:06 by Heretic.Ape.

Lip Service
(Or a Failed Attempt To Think of Something Other Than You)

The Scene does its best to impress: sunlight angles down
And to the left, just so, coaxing a neon moss colored glow
From the surface of the small lake resting like a green broken egg
Beneath a wreath of trees and grey rock outcropping;

The patch of sky exposed to my eyes is blue, then white,
Blue, then white, then blue again as the wind, like some furious djin,
Expands its chest, extends its breath, pushes the clouds fast
By the mountains patient head;

Huddled below at the humus feet of coniferous spires
(That set my mind whispering at the futile span of one life) tiny
Villages of mycotic albinos open white and mud colored umbrellas to...
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worlds worst buddhist

Posted 26-07-2008 at 12:29 by Heretic.Ape.

worlds worst buddhist

Eyes fixed but unfocused, a mantram pulsing through his head--weaving a vibrational flux to act like a pendulum of attraction on the electro-chemical waters of his brain; singing into being a scaffolding of dissociation.

Sinew and bone begin to melt into a quantum foam of probabilistic non locality.

Sounds of people talking and laughing are left to bleed into the sky, belonging no longer to the corrugated cartilage and tiny bones that catch and coax them into coherence.

Dimensionality begins to collapse, leaving the tapestry of sense and cognition--so enveloping and complete a moment before--seeming analogous to a spotted film of oil on the surface of an ocean.
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Heroin will be the death of me

Posted 21-10-2008 at 17:13 by msmogadon

I want to talk to you about one of the deadliest killers in the world today. I had a dream the other night. I was sitting in my living room, dosed off to sleep and so I started dreaming........
I dreamed I walked in a place and saw a real strange, weird object standing up talking to people. I found that it was heroin that deadly drug that go in your veins. He said..................
"I came to this country without a passport. ever since then I've been hunted and sought. My little white grains are nothing but waste. Sordid deadly and bitter to taste.
Well I'm a world power and although its true
Try me once and you'll know it too.
I can make a mere schoolboy forget his books
I can make a world famous beauty neglect her looks.
I can make a good man forsake his wife
Send a greedy man to prision...
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Case Study: Salvia Divinorum and Bipolar Disorder

Posted 18-11-2008 at 21:51 by Heretic.Ape.
Updated 19-11-2008 at 09:19 by Heretic.Ape.

1.0 Introduction
My monkey has noticed a remission of bipolar symptoms since beginning experimentation with salvia around two weeks ago. This blog will be a log of his observations to determine whether the plant is responsible for this remission, contemplations on the potential reasons for such an effect, and general thoughts on the matter.

2.0 Case History.
Subject began showing symptoms at around the age of 16 with mood swings, grandiose thinking, and other typical bipolar trademarks. The disorder reached it's fruition when subject was 22 years old. He had a complete breakdown, which he does not remember very well. He came to believe that he was the devil and that he had come to earth to set mankind free from the shackles of the false God and to redeem Truth by a pure form of heresy. If this does not make sense,...
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stories from a "gulag" school

Posted 30-04-2009 at 17:13 by Ilsa
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the following is the story of one of the girls i went to school with at mountain park baptist boarding school and academy. don't let the name fool you: these people were masters of insidious abuse and had no qualms about keeping almost 200 girls from ages 12 to 17 on thorazine to maintain control of an understaffed "school" that was really just a money-making scheme, as in, tuition checks were made as donations to the churchand therefore non-taxable. they have been run out of mississippi, louisiana, missourri and florida on child abuse allegations. anyway, here is becky's story:


I don't remember much, having blocked a lot out and from the effects of the thorazine, but here's what i do remember:

I left for Mountain Park on August 25, 1995. My parents and I were driving from Florida, and it took...
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More Thelemic Music: AL - 100th Anniversary

Posted 30-10-2009 at 00:27 by enquirewithin
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Soon after finding music from the Russian OTO, this comes my way:

AL - 100th Anniversary: Compilation of an exclusive and unreleased tracks dedicated to Aiwass & New Aeon & The Book Of The Law technically called Liber AL vel Legis sub figura CCXX as delivered by XCIII = 418 to DCLXVI that was dictated in Cairo on April 8th-10th in the year 1904.

This is a surprisingly good collection of modern music dedicated to Liber Al and Crowley in general. What is intersting is that Crowley's words are used here. These days it is relatively easy to produce good quality music inexpensively. One of the highlights of the collection is a new track by Genesis P-Orridge-- one of hir better tracks too.

As for the rest, I'll quote from Lashtal, a Crowley web site:

Quote:
This limited edition album –
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The Deranged Diary of a Labmonkey Drug Fiend Inasane

Posted 27-01-2011 at 04:53 by Heretic.Ape.
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I don't know if monkey would call it fate: that's not quite his thing. But he's always had a sense of it. A sort of gravity-well in the space-time of his life. A vector whispering the vague outline of the twisted order created by his fall through chaos; dark bulbous gestalts glimpsed through the glimmering flecks of poignant moments.

A ghost born at his own conception, his own self-destruction stretching before him.

Coded into his DNA.

Of course there's the epigenetics of the scenario: ways to fudge the protein-folding of fate. There are always ways to try, try and try to choose some other way through full-time hard work and miraculous methods and luck.

Doomed is far too absolute a word, but it tends to spring to his mind.

He is wondering about the practical differences...
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Time for a sabbatical.

Posted 13-02-2011 at 17:49 by Potter

This has been a terrible week. Monday I started throwing up in school and went home early. Tuesday I still felt like crap and realized I was sick from stress. Going to have to drop one of my classes to deal with everything.

Friday I found out that two of my friends, two people who were going to get involved with my performance group, got into a drunken fight over a sandwich. It ended with the guy shooting her multiple times in the back and her dieing on a neighbors porch.

Last night my group had a charity gig, we were a little disappointed at the crowed, and about not getting a featured slot, about not being allowed to light things on fire, but it was a charity gig, we got lots of fruit and cheese and to hang out together. It was lame, but not the end of the world. Well this one girl we had come brought...
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Things that we expect...

Posted 13-09-2011 at 03:46 by Potter

Known a number of people who have gone over a 1/4 ounce of dried mushrooms in a session. None of them reported any unexpected side effects or long term issues.

I should point out that in this group of people "unexpected side effects" did NOT include any of the following:
Abject Terror
Things that once seen were never able to be forgotten
Periods of inability to communicate with anything animate
Repeatedly getting lost... while sitting
The total lack of recognition of one's own body parts/voice/thoughts
The inability to recall how to operate; zippers, doors, hats, pencils...
Receiving the horrific knowledge concerning one's immanent demise at the hands of an unspeakable entity for being so foolish as to have done what they did.
Having their soul/mind/world...
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beenthere and his defense of felony cultivation, me against the wall

Posted 28-11-2011 at 03:59 by beentheredonethatagain
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PD knocked on my door , I opened it and stepped out and closed the door behind me.
They ask me my name and date of birth, I complied with the answers, then they asked if I was growing marijuana inside my home, I told them that wasn’t going to get an answer. Then they informed me of two traffic warrants for my arrest. I did as they asked, without incident.

After the arrest , I tried to communicate with my eleven year old son, he was inside the apt. I told him to call his grandmother, so she could take care of him.

The cops asked to enter my home, I said NO , they didn’t care what I said, they told me a security sweep was needed, they went inside without my permision.

They didn’t feel like there was a threat inside as they said later in court, they didn’t have a gun drawn...
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"You Get Old"-an essay on the freedom only found with age.

Posted 01-01-2012 at 23:12 by St Dismas Novitiate (The Frying Pan-Things Always Get Hot In Here!)

You get old, and life gets small. Not meager or pinched, just small. You don't buy groceries for a week anymore-two hours in the local market, drenched in sweat with a grocery list that unrolls like the Dead Sea Scrolls. No, you get old, you shop every day, with your list written on the cover of a matchbook. Two pork-chops, a can of green peas, four ears of corn (two for tomorrow), and two rolls of toilet paper.

You never buy mangoes, avocados, grapefruits, or key limes anymore. You move to Florida and pick them off of the trees in your backyard. When you were young, your Uncle Whoever moved to Sarasota and immediately sent you oranges from his tree. You thought "how sad". Now, you get old, you send mangoes, avocados, grapefruits, and key limes to all of your friends. You inclose a note, very seriously explaining how...
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A Rant-On "The Man", Oppression, and Mystic Mumbo-Jumbo.

Posted 04-01-2012 at 19:22 by St Dismas Novitiate (The Frying Pan-Things Always Get Hot In Here!)

My, how times have changes since the 1990's when DARE awards were being handed out to kids like speed gets handed out to combat pilots! You remember DARE, that debunked "Drug Abuse Resistance Education" program? The one where an over-zealous po-po on a power trip teaches you how to say no in a situation where stereotypically thuggish gang-banger offers you some herb or some dust? Having been a teenager in the early 1970's, I was pretty desensitized to Nancy Reagan's bull-shit "just Say No" campaign of the 80's and 90's. In fact, I can clearly recall being that much more interested in wanting to know just what made these illicit substances so taboo that not only were all of your friends' parents doing them, but the official powers that be were warning us not to partake, for we would surely end up either dead, homeless,...
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A Staggering Revelation Regarding the Site...

Posted 24-01-2012 at 05:21 by Metomni

Okay, so a little bit of background information before I give the revelation. A few summers back, after the site had become extremely populated, but before it had grown into what it is now, I had dedicated a significant chunk of time to gathering and entering the Rehab Facility Lists we have stored on our beloved website.

Now then, the past few weeks I have been trying to be at least slightly more active in reading and posting on the boards, but the truth of the matter is I haven't been nearly as active as I would like for the last 18 months or so, at least as far as posting and really dedicating time to handing out rep and forum activities. That said, I recently noticed my reputation bar (and only just recently, probably since we got the new server equipment last year?) has been growing quickly even though I haven't been active....
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Death and God

Posted 29-01-2012 at 19:21 by St Dismas Novitiate (The Frying Pan-Things Always Get Hot In Here!)

I have a friend who is a hospice chaplain, and I will occasionally go with him when he has a veteran to visit, as I am a vet myself and sometimes, it helps to have one of your own there.

Anyway, what it all boils down to is that I visit with people who are dying. It may sound kind of creepy, but I do this for several reasons-to pay my respects to those who have sacrificed for our freedoms, to help others as I hope to be helped some day, to hold their hand, so they know that, at the very end, there was someone there and they are not alone.

Mainly though, my reasons are quite selfish. I want to gather as much information as I can about dying and what goes through the mind at the last moment. Why? Hell, that's easy!

I'm scared shit-less about dying, that's why!

Anyway, the one question that...
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Responsibilities

Posted 16-02-2012 at 22:01 by St Dismas Novitiate (The Frying Pan-Things Always Get Hot In Here!)

What do we think of when we think of our responsibilities? Do we think of getting to work or school on time, or doing a good job in whatever field we might be in? Do we think of paying our bills or taxes on time, not over-drawing the checking account or not maxing out the credit card on silly things? Maybe we think of funding a savings or retirement account or getting life or health insurance. Undoubtedly, we think of our children, our partners, our family! In all likelihood, we do some combination of all of these things every day.

But do we ever really think about it? Why we do what we do, what we hope to achieve, what our goal or purpose is, etc.? Or do we just do it because it is what we were told is "right" or "expected" of us? I mean, obviously you pay your bills on time because you don't want your services...
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