The end of cocaine

[P!MPJU!C3]

Why did i ever start using cocaine?
Why did i continue using cocaine?
Why did i stop using, 4 days a go?

I still cant figure out why I ever started it. I am way to young to be doing cocaine. My first line I did with this girl I hooked up with after I broke up with my ex gf about a good 2 months a go. After sex she would do a line and i would smoke a cig. One day i just casually tried it. I hated the effects like the numb nose but liked the feeling in my head as if I was lifted up. Everyday i did more. Nothing changed. I kept functioning as I was suposed to. Doing my exams now nothing lower than an 8. The cocaine sure made me feel fine. It went my nose go numb, something i did not like. The trip was short lived but i felt powerfull and good about myself. I snorted it. Everybody around me except 4 my parents was happy that I joined in and was using 2 now. My friends were all anxious to get high with me. After a short time of using it I just sorta decided i dint feel like it anymore. The effects were getting less and I found it really expensive. I was also seeing the effects it had on my body. I was getting thinner again. It was difficult but i just locked myself in 2 my gym and felt fine like 2 days later. I cant figure out why I ever began continued or stopped. Its as if i dint have a choice in the matter.
Now im 4 days clean and not missing it at all. However i still am craving something. Something im not quite sure is really here.

P!MPJU!C3

Edited by: P!MPJU!C3

[Nicaine]

Should be in the recovery forum...

[club222]

I know exactly what you mean. I first tried it almost a year ago now,
in college. Myself, my roommate, and 2 other friends did it nightly for
about 2 months. Every night, if you walked by the room, all you'd hear
is lots and lots of talking and then *sniiiiiiiiffffff*. The feeling
was to great to stop. I saw some, I wanted it. Lucky for me, I
was almost broke, but had friends that were nice enough to share. I saw
a friend go through almost $6k in this short time. I didn't notice what
it was doing to me at the time. We'd score the coke late at night
normally, around midnight or so, then be high on coke until sunrise.
Then, went to sleep, missed all my classes, fucked up that semester. I
loved it so much.



4 months later, here I am today, clean from coke. The first couple
weeks after I stopped, they were hell. I felt very depressed, and was
anti-social. I didn't want to talk to anyone, or be around anyone. I
felt like shit. I was so used to feeling like I was on top of the world
and that nothing could stop me. Today, I don't have any cravings for
coke. Every now and then I will wish that I had some, but it will
quickly pass and I'll forget about it. I look back on all the fun times
we had, but I am SO</span> glad that I stopped.