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How does swiy deal with depression?
Swims love for mind altering substances came out of the need to escape hurtful things and sorrow.Ofcourse swim can not always afford to escape in this way.Swim wonders how other people deal with hurtful things and being depressed without the use of chemicals?Maybe swim can find the magic solution he has been looking for for so long with the help of other people on df?Swim certainly hopes!
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
Taking pyschoactive drugs for escapism can often lead to problems.
![]() It's not always the case and it is possible some drugs can effectively "kick start" someone out of a depressed period. It's equally possible however they will mask the symptoms of depression and pain when under the influence and have the depression and pain return far worse during the come down or whilst not under the influence. Certainly this is more true with addictive/habit forming drugs, having depression and being unhappy will increases ones chance of getting in to problematic use with them. There is always non-drug solutions which even if limited in efficacy certainly wont hurt: Good diet, excersize, meditation One should also not rule out proper medical or professional advise.This is only SWIMs advice & opinion but SWIM would suggest the magic bullet single solution to all problems doesn't (yet) exist and if for whatever reason SWIY thinks they have stumbled upon it in the future - think very hard about whether it really is the solution. Speaking from experience pride or contentment very often does come before a fall.
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
SWIM's always had problems with depression, and he normally gets around it by using drugs. But aside from drugs, SWIM watches movies (especially ones that he's seen before and loved), plays video games, and looks at crap online. SWIM is too depressed to want to hang out with anyone or do anything else.
Right now is especially hard for SWIM, because in the past he used drugs just as a means to escape depression and to relax. Over time he began to use them regularly to enhance his daily life, and now that classes are out and SWIM has a lot of time on his hands, he's finding himself depressed again, as usual. But now, SWIM's tolerance for his favorite drugs is much higher than it used to be and it seems the only way to deal with the depression is to take more and more, which will lead to money problems and addiction. It makes SWIM even more depressed when he thinks about that... |
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
Swim finds it impossible to escape.It is like a storm of depression and swim is trapped in the open with no shelter.It only gets worse as the years go on.Swim regrets suboxone maintenance sort of suboxone doesn't take away lifes pain like methadone or oxycontin.It is nice not to have to spend huge amounts of money not to get sick but on a whole suboxone is not that enjoyable.Swim wishes he could fight depression non chemically but he just can't.
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
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SWIM was happy when he first started using drugs, as finally there was a solution. But now, it just seems like he's postponing an inevitable breakdown. SWIM can take higher doses and different drugs, but that will only lead to worse places. SWIM would rather be happy, or at least content, and live a short life than be miserable and live a long life, though. It's sad that those seem to be the only 2 choices SWIM has. |
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
swiss gets depression after a drug binge or after addiction, she trys to stay god damn positve, eat well, even if having to be forcing oneself, and doing the things that would normaly is swim wasnt feeling low, swiss loves music of all kinds, makes music, anmd it just lifts her soul. swiss cant comment on takeing drugs to escape from depression of any kind. swiss hopes swiy gets through this, all the best
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
SWIM has had, to say the minimum, depression for the last five years. Up until now he hasn't really tried to deal with these problems with ways other than chemicals.. Although he still does take anti-depressants/anti-psychotics/nootropics. It seems that his depression just seems to worsen everyday, but lately it has seemed to get significantly better. SWIM has used a most likely not too healthy technique of holding in all emotions ( as in not letting anyone know how he feels ) until they seem to go away. Things usually seem to get worse once he starts telling others about the way he feels, because others usually over react to the thoughts that he explains he is having. None of these thoughts are really out of the ordinary to him.. Seeing he has been dealing with them since he can remember. He really just tries to live day to day, this is the only thing that really helps. And for the past couple of weeks he has been doing great amounts of exercise to help, and it really does.
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
swia has a life and real friends and people who care about her and activities so she is not in these states... despite her drug use.
anti-depressants are NOT the way forward all the time. friends are a good thing, so is a goal in life. |
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
Look at the original reason to why the depression exists, the answer for SWIF isnt ever escape or avoidance, it's changing ones state of being or life so that there is nothing to depress oneself. That said life is full of peaks and troughs and in that case it's like Alicia said, good friends, and fun things in life, an enjoyable job, fun hobbies, sport. Choose life
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
SWIM has been depressed on and off for the last ten years or so of his life. He has selfmedicated many drugs to ease, supress and, in retrospect, prolong and worsen this condition. Cannabis, GHB, Alcohol, heroin and ketamine have all been trialed by SWIM for their escapistic qualities. They helped him during some rough times and still do occationaly but daily use tended to make things worse in the long run. And as time went by he started feeling that this wasn't the solution, as he remembered feeling shitty earlier on but not as shitty as now. He reached a low point (partially spawned by a Kundalini awakening which put SWIM in a existential/spiritual crisis) and decided it was finally time to seek professional help. So he wen't to his doctor and was put on antidepressants, he tried a couple but none of them seemed to help rather the opposite, he has seen them have some positive effects on friends of SWIM when they've been at an all low, but in the long run they don't change the situation much. Also the side effects where too plentyful for SWIM so he dropped antidepressants and took a whole other approach. SWIM had had a ketamine abuse up untill recently and one of the last insights he had while the K-hole was still within reach, was that yoga and meditation was the way forward. He started a daily yoga schedule, in the beginning it was far from daily more like weekly, but in time he got the energy and fancy to do it everyday. It starts feeling rewarding already after a few days of pracsis and sometimes a stretch even loosens up some emotional garbish from some knot in ones body, this holistic kind of healing may seem farfetched for SWIY so SWIM would suggest trying it out just for the sake of the exercise. Excersise is gold when depressed, and just a daily 20-30 min. walk can work wonders. Yoga and excersise will aid in general healthiness and wellbeing which is a essential foundation for curing depression.
SWIM realized that trying to run from his problems didn't help, no matter how deep he hid in some drughaze the problems would still be there when he returned to the surface, and trying to solve them all seemed an impossible task. But he found inspiration in an easily read book by Chögyam Trungpa called Meditation in Action that made him start to accept his self with all its flaws. I'll quote a few passages here. Even when stripped of the symbolism and semireligous retoric which may be too much for SWIYs it still contains some good sound advice IMHO, swap Awakening with elevating a depressed state and so on and it could be of some use. It has been for SWIM atleast. Quote:
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
Swim deals with mild depression/OCD. Right now he takes heroic doses of caffeine (a pot a day or so), which makes him a "mean lean problem-solving machine" at school and induces euphoria. He (perhaps sadly) tends to not view emotions as anything special, just neurochemical processes that can be manipulated at will. He knows he's just avoiding a problem, but it's easier to think that way. </emo>
Swim has been looking into dramamine as a potential SSRI in low doses (75mg perhaps, with caffeine to offset drowsiness). He also wants to get fluoxetine or bupropion off of the internet, but can't. Is swim clinically depressed, or just a junkie? We may never know. |
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
Things swim suggest: Try to find a goal in life. Find a philosophy. Talk or find friends to talk too. Just talk to a strange everyday and talk about the weather or something more boring. Write poetry and post the stuff. Keep a dairy and leave it in the bus. Write blogs. Read lots of books. Go out. Do sports. Say everyday to your mirror image, you love the person you see. Say you are beautiful. Masturbate whenever you want, wherever you want. Have lots of sex. Explore your fantasy. Find someone. Buy presents for others or yourself. Buy new clothes, don't restrict oneself herein. Over the top is fine. Buy what one want. Cook good and nice meals. Go outside (especially on rainy days) and just walk and think and when one is frozen go back home and drink a nice cup of hot chocolate milk. Go outside, when it lightens, and listen to grandiose music -Any Requiem, Carmina Burana, anything Wagner- and imagine you can throw lighting. Hold that thought and get lost in the moment. Practice on lucid dreaming. Just disappear for a week, go to another country hitch-hiking. Make a big fire with friends. Start a exciting project -build a railgun, whatever-. Tell someone you really love him or her. Go climb the Kilimanjaro.
Do something strange every day. Do something exciting once in a while. Do something, that is the bottom line and do something unexpected Find a partner in "crime". Try to get out of your normal pattern, maybe you will be able to view things in a different perspective. This works for swim. He just has to do something. Something new. Something different. Something to break his patterns, which have driven him to his depressive state. |
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
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Surprisingly, he managed to have a good discussion with both people that didn't involve the overreacting that one typically sees from people after you tell them your outlook on life. SWIM's only told 2 people before this in his entire lifetime, and it made him never want to speak of it again to anyone. Their constant attempts to cheer you up and change your outlook on life by spewing bullshit was so tiring. However, SWIM thinks that telling people who you really trust can be helpful, as long as they are the type who are willing to discuss things without overreacting. It also definitely helps if drugs are involved with both (or all) people involved in the discussion. Don't give up on talking to close friends about things; as SWIM said, it really did make SWIM feel better in the end. Better than he felt going into the conversation, anyway. Quote:
Last edited by SuprSonik; 24-12-2007 at 04:30.. |
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Re: How does swiy deal with depression?
get an ounce of regular salvia leaves. they'll be around 5x. they go for xxxx usd's, then get some j-wraps, and smoke them like cigarettes. I've found that I appreciate life and how perfectly it works. alcohol can do the same, but it's a 50/50 chance of making things better or worse
Please do not discuss prices, you may instead enter them in the drug price calculator Last edited by ~lostgurl~; 24-12-2007 at 20:45.. Reason: price discussion |
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