_caesar_
15-10-2007, 20:55
So its been a while since SWIM posted, mainly due to his 'friend' - lets call him Oge and his benzodiazepine addiction.
Oge's (29 Yrs) - always been fond of experimentation with altered states of consciousness, he tried LSD for the first time when he was 12 and his further forays into the realms of the psychedelic states have been some of the most profound and rewarding experiences in his life.
For the most part he has tried his best to research most of the psychoactive compounds he has ingested. He didn't bother when it came to certain pharmaceutical drugs.
Last July decided he was going to forge a prescription for some Xanax, it was pretty easy to do and the first script he typed up and signed was the standard he has used since :
Xanax 1MG TID PRN
Easy as 3.14159.
He had some experience with Apralozam before and intended to use it after a heavy night of psychedelic / stimulant use or for relaxation purposes and in the aid of sleep.
Over a matter of weeks the addiction started. All over his city he had a rotation of scripts and needed around 3MGs a day to keep him stable and often binged on up to 60 or more a day.
Now the addiction itself is a nightmare but he could suffer it and would continue to do so if it was not for one of the side effects of Xanax - dyscontrol.
THE CREATION OF SENSELESS VIOLENCE:
PSYCHIATRIC DRUGS AND KIDS WHO KILL
Citizens Commission on Human Rights
In 1970 a textbook on the side effects of psychiatric drugs pointed out the potential for violence from these drugs stating, "Indeed, even acts of violence such as murder and suicide have been attributed to the rage reactions induced by chlordiazepoxide (Librium) and diazepam (Valium)."
Valium was later replaced by Xanax as the most widely prescribed minor tranquilizer. But the leopard did not change its spots. According to a 1984 study of Xanax, "Extreme anger and hostile behavior emerged from eight of the first 80 patients we treated with alprazolam (Xanax).
And a 1985 investigation into Xanax, reported in the American Journal of Psychiatry, claimed that more than half (58 percent) of the treated patients experienced serious "dyscontrol", i.e. violence and loss of control compared with only eight percent who were given a placebo.
So over the last 14 or so months he has been a living zombie, coping some days with the lower doses but developing a lack of regard for the norms of expected behavior in todays society.
Now dont get me wrong, Oge is no angel but some of the crimes he has committed over this period of time shock him. They involve extreme violence, malice and destruction of property - his own and others.
He has lost most of his friends and is facing court proceedings over a serious assault (which was against a close friend of ten years). With further legal action taken against him over other crimes of malice.
ALL of the crimes he has committed were under the influence of this evil drug.
He has tried to withdraw before and did so over a week with the help of Librium slowly titrated over the 7 days. He lasted two or three weeks of severe anxiety, fear nightmares etc before he broke and typed up another script and again was calm but again completely unbalanced and committed very regretful acts again.
The fear of prison has resulted in more baggage to be added to already severely disturbed self and has resulted in suicidal thoughts over the last 6 months or so. He recently almost succeeded with what he thought would be a good way to go: He sent a few goodbye SMS messages, locked himself into a small room after turning off the electrical supply in his apartment and turned on the valve of his 6000 cubic litre canister of N2O. Before the police and firemen burst in woke him and evacuated the whole building !!
So now again Oge is trying to withdraw from Xanax. He fears of what he is capable of and hopefully you can imagine he is regretful.
He called a doctor yesterday, he told him about his problems (legal,addiction, depression and suicidal idealization and was given a script for 1MG Xanax BD PRN and wrote him a letter of introduction to a psychiatrist.
Hopefully a understanding psychiatrist is available in hospital tomorrow, who can titrate his dose and recommend a good Cognitive behavioral therapist.
In the mean time the pure evil and destructive bag of ~50 1MG tablets sits on his table.
Oge's (29 Yrs) - always been fond of experimentation with altered states of consciousness, he tried LSD for the first time when he was 12 and his further forays into the realms of the psychedelic states have been some of the most profound and rewarding experiences in his life.
For the most part he has tried his best to research most of the psychoactive compounds he has ingested. He didn't bother when it came to certain pharmaceutical drugs.
Last July decided he was going to forge a prescription for some Xanax, it was pretty easy to do and the first script he typed up and signed was the standard he has used since :
Xanax 1MG TID PRN
Easy as 3.14159.
He had some experience with Apralozam before and intended to use it after a heavy night of psychedelic / stimulant use or for relaxation purposes and in the aid of sleep.
Over a matter of weeks the addiction started. All over his city he had a rotation of scripts and needed around 3MGs a day to keep him stable and often binged on up to 60 or more a day.
Now the addiction itself is a nightmare but he could suffer it and would continue to do so if it was not for one of the side effects of Xanax - dyscontrol.
THE CREATION OF SENSELESS VIOLENCE:
PSYCHIATRIC DRUGS AND KIDS WHO KILL
Citizens Commission on Human Rights
In 1970 a textbook on the side effects of psychiatric drugs pointed out the potential for violence from these drugs stating, "Indeed, even acts of violence such as murder and suicide have been attributed to the rage reactions induced by chlordiazepoxide (Librium) and diazepam (Valium)."
Valium was later replaced by Xanax as the most widely prescribed minor tranquilizer. But the leopard did not change its spots. According to a 1984 study of Xanax, "Extreme anger and hostile behavior emerged from eight of the first 80 patients we treated with alprazolam (Xanax).
And a 1985 investigation into Xanax, reported in the American Journal of Psychiatry, claimed that more than half (58 percent) of the treated patients experienced serious "dyscontrol", i.e. violence and loss of control compared with only eight percent who were given a placebo.
So over the last 14 or so months he has been a living zombie, coping some days with the lower doses but developing a lack of regard for the norms of expected behavior in todays society.
Now dont get me wrong, Oge is no angel but some of the crimes he has committed over this period of time shock him. They involve extreme violence, malice and destruction of property - his own and others.
He has lost most of his friends and is facing court proceedings over a serious assault (which was against a close friend of ten years). With further legal action taken against him over other crimes of malice.
ALL of the crimes he has committed were under the influence of this evil drug.
He has tried to withdraw before and did so over a week with the help of Librium slowly titrated over the 7 days. He lasted two or three weeks of severe anxiety, fear nightmares etc before he broke and typed up another script and again was calm but again completely unbalanced and committed very regretful acts again.
The fear of prison has resulted in more baggage to be added to already severely disturbed self and has resulted in suicidal thoughts over the last 6 months or so. He recently almost succeeded with what he thought would be a good way to go: He sent a few goodbye SMS messages, locked himself into a small room after turning off the electrical supply in his apartment and turned on the valve of his 6000 cubic litre canister of N2O. Before the police and firemen burst in woke him and evacuated the whole building !!
So now again Oge is trying to withdraw from Xanax. He fears of what he is capable of and hopefully you can imagine he is regretful.
He called a doctor yesterday, he told him about his problems (legal,addiction, depression and suicidal idealization and was given a script for 1MG Xanax BD PRN and wrote him a letter of introduction to a psychiatrist.
Hopefully a understanding psychiatrist is available in hospital tomorrow, who can titrate his dose and recommend a good Cognitive behavioral therapist.
In the mean time the pure evil and destructive bag of ~50 1MG tablets sits on his table.