Alcohol...............

[behemuthzero]

yes swim is drunk...but for some reason swim still says swim instead of "I".........Swim regards respect very highly swim...supposes....yes its not heroin and yes its not coke..but swim is starting to believe he is an alcoholic....swim drink every chance he gets and even this week has spent a majority of the grocery money on alocohol...swim has alot of pride and only feels comfortable saying this amongst swims friends i apologize for the depravity of this it is so pathetic....i have a girlfriend in the next room crying begging me o stay cause she loves me but she left for two weeks and ended up fucking some redneck piece of shit in his stead...if he was better than him swim could understand but he has a shitty job and a pathetic lifestyle....I think i am an alcoholic...I know i can stop drinking but swim never finds a reason to...The first time swim came to this forum about recovery swim didn't post cause he felt he had no place talking to ppl who had "true" addictions and now swim is not so sure...is swim an alocoholic..could i be so low...she is crying in the bathroom now so i can hear her...she says she loves swim but i cannot be sure...if she loved him then why did she leavehim in the first place...hate is so easy....why must love be so hard...even now i think of throwing this computer desk across the room and destroying every thing that comes in my path...i want to breath fire....i want to destroy somthing beautiful...is it her that is beautiful....or us....fuck swim needs another shot...here she is now right next to me...
tapping me...I told her i will be there in just a minute in the bedroom....i am about to throw her away for my foolish pride i think...pride encouraged by my inebriation....am i stupid...am i drunk.....am i insane....am i psychotic...Swim is truly sorry my friends...i know this isn;t a forum for stupid selfish feelings...twitch...Swim came here to learn and fucked it all up...I cut down Anna...i used to drink 3 gallond\s a week...i am down to 1....I tried and failed...maybe he is better...Tears... LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!So weak....I want to stop but the excuse of being a man and living where i pay the rent...NO i don't have a secret stash..its my fucking house bitch i shouldn't have to keep a secret...So swim isn;t an alcoholic...I think...am i wrong...I hope noone else has to go this...stop ahead....its not worth it...fuck she is staring at me ...........................goodbye Swims

[behemuthzero]

Swim doesn't know...Swim thinks this will end badly for him....BRB...Needed a shot...Swim is a production mamager with the Tyson Corperation...the second bbiggest food company in the world we only6 go back and forth between coke a cola..and they are not even really food like we are we give pork chicken and beef now that we absorbed the IBP corperation....I make 47,780 dollars a Year......I guess it can ahppen to anyone.....Fuck I am rambling....Before the night is over....i will lose someone i think truely loves me..."I think"...and this whole sitution is confusing...this is the result of alcohol....my situation may be stupid...Swim doesn't know why he is posting this...maybe i don't want you to hurt like i do right now...I am so sorry if this seems stupid i apologize for my patheticness...(lol not even a word is it).....I just hope noone else ends up at the end of the road like me....please stop before you come here.......Is it love?? is it the fear of seperation......is it my stupidity....is life just a series of moment i need to seize...fuck philiosephy class......It hurts....thats all i know...and i am afraid...please take the detour before this happens to you...

[Forthesevenlakes]

i hope swiy re-reads this in the morning and realizes what he has to do, although it sounds like he already knows what must be done. but dont worry, its never the end of the road as long as you're alive. best of luck, and i think alot of people in the forum could give some helpful advice if you are in need. swim has had addictions that he's gotten past, but not alcohol, so he feels out of place trying to give too much advice, but swim sincerely hopes that swiy is doing alright when he reads this.

[oggy]

I think you should lay off the drink for a bit and try to think about how much you love your girlfriend. I can understand how much it must hurt to be cheated on but if you leave her you might never get her back and one day you might be hurt even more.

Its not easy to find love and if you have it keep it. Everyone makes mistakes and if you leave her it could well be the biggest mistake of your life. Take a break from each other and get sober, then try to figure out witch way you want to go.

I can tell you one thing for sure is you will fuck it up whatever you decide to do when drunk.

[shiznat]

smokin whiskey and drinkin cocain.been there done that behe.worked the oil rigs for yrs.swim dont think you are an alcoholic lol ,you seem to regret too much.a true alcoholic would kick the cheatin btch out and go find that bottle he hid in the garage.swim is himself an experianced boozer and only craves the stuff in his mind.thats easy to beat.true alcoholism is a physical addiction to alcohol and the alcoholic drinks to feel normal.the aspect of quitting scares him or her to death as they well know the consequences of going dry.DELERIUM TREMONS.you are just having a bad day and feeling like a burnt turd.lol remember a feeling isnt your state of life,it will pass.if booze is causing problems with the female in your life just think of all us shmucks who go through the same thing.a woman is bound to find fault in anything we do and drinking is on the top of the list.just dont ask her why she drinks a twelve pack of pepsi every two days lmao.first thing keep your job and your cool,then worry about the cheatin blankety blank blank that was sticking some other guys willy up her cooch while you were alone and hurtin.make a note to yourself to throw her off a bridge and get a good woman..shiz.......