View Full Version : Can you stop using cocaine when you said you would?
Who here can accually stop when they said they were going to. I know this is possible, but it's hit or miss for swim, mostly miss. It wouldn't be as big of an issue if swim could stop when he planned to. It's so f-ing hard to come of that cloud and fall soooo far down. How do you do it?
SWIMs pretty lucky with this, since most people have the same prob with blow, but swim can pretty much always stop whenever he tells himself that he should stop. That doesnt mean hes not "fiending" it, but swim can jsut tell himself to chill, and he'll even have the rest of the yay to look forward to next time he does it. this may seem odd, but swim finds that he thinks about yay more often when he doesnt actaully have it, as opposed to having it but holding back. swims kept small ammounts of yay for about 2 weeks before even, and just that thought that he'll be doing it some time when he's chillin with his friends or w/e helps quite a bit to keep him from doing it.
the intensity of the high also determines the extent to which swim is fiending the coke. If he does a few nice lines and feels the proper coke euphoria, then he's satisfied and doesnt feel the need to do anymore for a while. Swim actually feels the opposite of fiending during this sort of high, and even a bit after. On the other hand, if the coke sucks, or he just has a little bit of it, swim is fiending it because he just got a taste of it and wants more.
The best remedy for this type of situation would probably be to tell yourself that you'll have the rest of the yay for next time, which can be tomorow, next weekend, w/e, but its very important to learn to control this and limit your use. drugs are great, and i love yay, but they shouldnt be abused to the level where you feel that you actually NEED them.
FutureMovieStar
26-01-2006, 13:10
Someone who REALLY isn't me...has a serious problem with stopping...so bad, that one time at thier house I spray painted a big S C on thier wall when they and swim were high as a kite.
The S C stands for SELF CONTROL!!
Swim can stop...though its difficult cause swim works till 3am anyway so stopping at 10am is like stopping at 4am for people with regular work hours. Swim finds going to parties with co-workers that don't use cola or use it only slightly really helps out a lot. But it can be hard when swim works in an industry were you party late to early in the morning and the drugs be it cola or whatever is everywhere.
motorhead
26-01-2006, 16:24
It's so f-ing hard to come of that cloud and fall soooo far down. How do you do it?
I did it by quiting. After so long you get to a point where its either-"Well i can stay on this fucking rollercoaster of ups and downs till it takes me to oblivion" or "well i better smarten up" Yeah, this swim could only stop when the dope and the money was gone. She's 'sneaky sneaky' that one.
epiphanyx
26-01-2006, 17:11
SWIM has found that the only guaranteed way of stopping is to absolutely remove herself from any proximity to it. Once it's in the vicinity SWIM's gonna do it - that's just the way it is. Cocaine has got to be the most moreish drug ever.
Swim did a little experiment last night to see if he could do this. The goal was to do .5g and stop. Each additional line was a lower grade. He got a "D", barely passing but with some self control exercised. He went to a friends house real late and felt the need for one more just to be somewhat social and not a crashing freak. Well one turned into another. He was at the point where no more would go up there anyway and I don't think it was helping much anymore. They were some pretty big rails. Swim said he would try doing less and see if he could stop then. Cause the more you do the harder you crash.
All I can say is that it takes a stronger man than swim to stop half-way though the blow. That shit is playing with fire and you're likely to get burned. I agree that the best way and possibly the only way is by making it impossible or at least very hard to get more, like having to drive 30 miles or something. That stuff messes with your mind to a degree that is unimaginable to someone who isn't there. I think swim should stay away. And anyone else with an addictive personality. I don't understand how people can do this stuff for long periods of time or only do it on weekends or whatever. I don't get it.
AceOvArts
02-02-2006, 19:29
its bad bad stuff...if its in the house Ill do it, I can get tired of it then crash but will get straight back to it the following day.
I excersize self control by staying away from it, but I want it still. I want it now
*sigh*
Yeah it's just crazy how much it can change and warp you. You'll want to throw it down the toilet the previous night only to wish you had it the next day. Your brain chooses to be selective in it's memory and remember the 20 min of heaven and overlook the 4 hours of hell that is the aftermath. It really doesn't make any sense. I know exactly how you feel aceovarts I'm in the same boat. Swim has got to stop soon for sure but he keeps putting it off. And to make things even worse he's totally hooked on the opiates too. What a mess!
Anything can be produce positive effects in moderation. That's the key. If the only reason you do drugs is because youre "addicted" then that ruins the experience.
AceOvArts
03-02-2006, 09:49
Ive done things like, delete all my contact numbers for dealers etc. Only to goto my damn phone bill to find the number again. I mean, whats up with that ?
Its crazy stuff, Im glad I have enough responsibilities and things to do to take my mind off of it for some of the time else I would be at it all the time (of course I would be broke then). u4ic...mate...dont start soon, try and start now bro !! Im with ya all the way!
Thanks Bro swim appreciates the encouragement. Swim is still f***ing around trying to play with fire. He is trying to find some formula or protocol to justify his use. Or to at least minimize the problems it causes. Definately an uphill battle, one that he's losing. I think that maybe there are more cons than pros. Let's think about it, it's expensive can easily blow $50 a day. Damaging to the nose, and probably not good for your heart and god knows what else. The crash lasts longer than the high. It can aggrevate depression and anxiety in individuals with prexisting conditions. The only pro is that it makes you feel like a million bucks for about an half hour. Is it worth it? Who am I to say you can only speak for yourself. I would just like to add that the doses freud was working with when he did his initial research was like 50mg a day. Thats like a line that weighed .05g not much. I think that the problem is that people are taking way too much. You body is not equiped to respond to a .1g line every 20 min. In swims experience less is more. You might realize this the morning after when you salvage what you missed the night before, the night before when you thought you were going to die or go crazy and considered throwing it in the toilet. I'll post the article about coke by freud if I can figure it out.
http://www.druglibrary.org/schaffer/Library/studies/cu/CU35.html
AceOvArts
05-02-2006, 08:49
Last night swim was about to lapse, swim had ordered 3g from his dealer. What a relief when he couldnt supply it ! Swim was so happy it was almost as good as the first line. This has made swim stronger for the battle, yet 8.50 am as he still longs for the hit.
Funny how that works. Based on that scenario you could simply apply the end result to the next situation. Something like: wanting coke, not getting coke, feeling much better without the coke. With coke, less is more and nothing is as less as you can get. You abuse your coke privledges you lose your coke privledges. That seems to be the trend. Also I don't think coke is a drug meant to be used for long periods. It's kind of a phase thing, you get over it with time. As soon as you cross the line from hobby to habit all the fun goes out the window. You just have to weigh out all the factors and see if the pro's outweigh the con's. You have to think logically and not emotionally. Emotions are the root of all evil. Coke withdrawal isn't really all that bad compared to opiate withdrawal which is mainly physical as opposed to emotional. The coke addiction I think is incorrectly labeled as mental. I don't think that's the case. If you think about it logically the con's greatly outweigh the pro's. It's the emotional part that draws you back. If you read freud's findings it makes much more sense. I'll post another good article by the king of physcology. I'm not saying I fully agree with everything he deducted but most of it makes perfect sense.http://www.ship.edu/~cgboeree/freud.html
voirdires1
07-02-2006, 07:36
It's always the same. SWIM is out drinking with friends and the alcohol lowers the will power and SWIM orders the cola. SWIM ditches the friends and goes home and puts it away. SWIM always says 'I won't take it...just keep if for a reminder not to do it'. This lasts until the next morning. By the end of they day at least a ball is gone. Even after SWIM has used so much the high is gone, he has to keep going with shorter and shorter time in between uses. SWIM has flushed large quantities, deleted contact numbers, tried to drink so much to pass out and tried to stop drinking altogether, made countless pacts with God, and even donated every spare dollar to charity...only to fall and use again. It's a helluva drug.
liquidsnowboards
25-02-2006, 04:55
you know what honestly I have never done cocaine and from reading what everyone says I think it is impossible to do the drug and not get addicted...I mean can anyone argue against me??? It seems to me like it is so not worth it to try it...any ideas???
AceOvArts
25-02-2006, 09:21
In SWIMs experience he has seen many people try it and because of the cost involved not get to into Coke. He has friends that very rarely do it and get away with it. This is not to say that if its being offered they turn it down because if its free they are like vultures around carrion. The thing about coke is to start with its very nice, its too nice really. Seems easy enough to do, no big deal. But isnt that the same with ALL addictive drugs ? The reason they are addictive is cos they make you feel so damn good ...... to start with.
So SWIMs advice is to stay away from coke, yes its nice for a while.....until like all the bad drugs it grips you and pulls you down.
d.d.d.d.d dont dont do it....ba.ba.ba.baby.....ba.ba.ba.baby
:)
Micklemouse
25-02-2006, 11:49
you know what honestly I have never done cocaine and from reading what everyone says I think it is impossible to do the drug and not get addicted...I mean can anyone argue against me??? It seems to me like it is so not worth it to try it...any ideas???
A certain Mouse read this, and couldn't help but start an argument;)! This is what he told me -
"Cocaine was one of the later drugs in the list of things ingested, partly for similar reasons to those stated above, at least when younger, partly because he had an aversion to insufflation and things that remind him of the dentist, and later on because of experiencing coke-heads first hand and not particularly liking what he saw! The arrogance, the self-centredness, the 'Me!me!me!'-ness, the tetchiness, the inflexibility, the 'Gotta get some more!' when the bag ran out, the list goes on... Basically, all the things pointed to a generally worthless experience, with no scope for personal growth or exploration, unless you count exploring your more arrogant and super-confident side in the short term.
Now, after a lot of thought and in the right company, the certain Mouse got over his own arrogance towards this particular substance, and thought 'Well, why ever not?' By this time he was a little older, and had met people who liked Charlie a lot, but were by no means addicted - they'd buy a bag every so often, share it out, and have a giggle with people they liked. Nowt wrong with that. The first few times, he really couldn't see what all the fuss was about - it was nice and all that, lovely feeling of being just fine and dandy, increased confidence and talkativeness he supposed, but still couldn't see how this could be a valid life choice. Although it did take a few goes on separate occasions to really 'get' what was going on with it, luckily, this feeling for the drug hasn't really changed.
Interestingly, this Mouse has a distinct predilection for dopamine agonists - is a confirmed smoker and caffeine junkie, and came a serious cropper through amphetamines a while back - but cocaine, although he enjoy it every now and again, just doesn't have that same pull or attraction."
So there you go, a certain Mouse's perspective and experience. It is possible to pick up coke and then put it down again. The problem is that there is no real way of knowing if you are going to be one of those individuals who are able to do this
kemistudent
25-02-2006, 15:00
Good question U4IC, I would have to say 8/10 times I would not, but when it comes to coke, 2/10 times I would actually spend my own cash on it. I am very much against street coke. I have this thing about purity.
Yeah same here. I think an acetone wash is a good idea. Been researching the topic of being able to stop extensively lately. Taking notes through out the day and stuff. Its amazing how this stuff can disolve your resolve and take control. The best thing you can do is not get in too deep. Less is more.
Cokabuzer
28-03-2006, 11:52
After a while of regularly snorting, I got to that point where stopping at the wanted time got very difficult. I usually buy 7grams at a time and have often been so out of control that I ended up taking 3.5 to myself in 24 hours. It's so bad that I'd continue snorting even after my nose was totally congestioned, forcing real hard to get the stuff to come up... I do wonder if there are many users who've been this bad as well.
I'm lucky that I can't contact the seller directly, he is very secretive so I have to ask one of my friends to get it for me and it's at least a 20-minute drive, which discourages me to call for more when I run out.
At some point, I was so sick of going overboard that I asked my friend to have the 7grams separated into seven bags of 1gram and to keep them for me, and had him promise he wouldn't give me more than one bag at once, for a max of two per week, no matter what I said. That helped.
One day I asked him to bring two 1g. bags: one for my immediate usage, the other to hide carefully in my apartment to save him a trip next time, only having to call him and ask where he hid it. I knew he'd hide it somewhere I'd never find it even if I searched for a year! Well, right after I was done with the first gram, of course I started looking everywhere for the hidden one even if I knew I wouldn't find it. I gave up after an hour of searching.
The following week I called him to ask where he had hidden the other bag... I live alone and never selled drugs or had to hide some carefully in my home, so although his hiding spot might not surprise some of you (???), I was amazed when he told me it was under the cap that goes over the metal screw on top of my fridge!!! You know what I mean? It's true, I never would have found it.
Just to show you the lenghts I had to go to in order to limit my intake! I envy those users who can have an eightball last for weeks, who can take one or two or three or four reasonable size lines in a day and no more! I wish I was like that!
EveryStar
22-11-2007, 10:50
I'm glad I can get yay whenever I want, my dealer's always available, meaning I never have to stock up and buy like a quarter ounce at a time. I always buy a gram at a time, because I know the less blow I have, the more I'll try to conserve it. Then when I run out I just call my dealer up again and get another gram. That's the best way I found to make your coke last as long as possible, especially if you don't have the self-control to not do large amounts when you have them.
I have a friend who is terrible, he'd get 3-4g, then he'd do it in (he did 2g in 25mins the other week) and be on the phone to his dealer asking for another 2g, this might last a little longer if he's trying to restrain himself, but when that goes he'd be back on the phone. After the 3rd or 4th time the dealer would get too paranoid my friend is bringing it on top for him and would refuse, my friend would start sending begging texts. It's really pathetic to see them too, things like "please, last time, promise", etc, etc.
I can't ever imagine myself in that position. If it's not around I don't really bother, I don't stress over it and don't immediately rush out to get any. However, if someone came round and offered me a line it's hard to say no, you want to, but you start thinking of that feeling and it's easy to cave in. When it's run out though I tend to be "meh, that's that" and get on with things.
If there's a large amount about though, say for example when I used to sit on a bit for the friend I described earlier and ration it out to him (half / full oz a week he'd have), although I might not bother during the day, once it gets to 9-10pm I might start dipping in and having a few lines, and this could continue every night until he'd done the majority of it in (he didn't mind me helping myself btw).
thing is, with really good coke, you don't get that horrible moreish feeling, it's that good your brain is telling you more isn't necessary. unfortunately most coke about these days is pretty crap, even when you think you're getting from someone reputable. :(
SWIM recently quit coke about a week ago and is still very happy about quitting. SWIM would encourage anyone to quit this drug because it brings no good, trust SWIM. SWIM tried to quit couple of times cold turkey but just wasn't too serious about it, this time he is.
Snowdayagain
30-11-2007, 08:10
Swim normally does all of his coke in one night and NEVER has any leftover to tempt him the next day, and he rarely even wants to do it the next day either. The second day however swim is moodier than a mother. That being said he is not sure if he could stop if he still had some bust out, like if he needed to get some rest.
He does stop doing big lines around 4am during the week and does a couple of bumps if his come down is going bad to take the edge off but definitely doesn't do lines after that.
Then he waits normally three or four days at the least before he starts again.....
Swim is pretty disciplined I suppose.
MOD EDITED
DO NOT SELF INCRIMINATE
swim said he's going to stop in the year 2042. Still standing by it strong, no problems so far.
bl0whydr0420
07-12-2007, 05:36
swim doesn't have enough self control to stop right when he wants, ususally goes on like two or three hours after swim originally wanted to quit, to finally stop.
swim never uses it all in one go because swim usually uses it on his own time, and never buys less then an eightball, and the full eightball is a bit much for one night. haha.
KomodoMK
08-12-2007, 18:00
SWIM usually wants to stop fairly early if he has work the next day, however, if SWIM is having a great time with friends, it rarely stops when it should.
Idioteque
09-12-2007, 02:21
SWIM manages to keep his cocaine habit to weekends and no more than 2 times a month. SWIM does have a problem when he tries to quit for longer than 2 weeks ( a month for example). SWIM can be fine for 13 days, productive at work and having a great social life, but he finds that more often than not, a switch will get hit in his brain and after two weeks he will suddenly, out of the blue become obsessed with the drug and have to get some. SWIM hates it when this switch gets hit.
Swim has been off and on for a while now. swim used to buy grams at a time, do it all in a few hours and then feind like a maniac. Swim was pretty much broke all the time. recently she quit for almost a month. once she quit it was fine not having it, even relieving, and she had money again! but then she got her paycheck and the dope man just happened to call.. lately swim has been much better at not doing too much, just buying large amounts less often.. the more she gets the cheaper it is, and that way she can just have alot of fun for a while and then save up for later.
still, it can be hard to stop..
swim wanted to quit blow first few times and relapsed and this time he quit for good. Fuck coke. Evil drug. SWIM controls COKE, not the other way around.
dj_quinn
10-12-2007, 03:52
SWIM could never proportion his stash and practice self contol as long as it was sitting there, staying up for days and even calling in sick to work to continue the binge. Now SWIM only uses occasionaly, and its only because it is so much harder to get were SWIM lives now. When SWIM was living in the States, it was everywhere. Now that SWIM lives in Ireland and does not have easy accesabilty, its only a once-in-a-while treat and much more enjoyable.
To answer the question, SWIM does know some people who could make a gram last for a couple of days. SWIM never could. Maybee at first, but not now. Its more like an hour.
Divalici0us
23-12-2007, 03:33
Yes, if im tired or its boring than i quit and go te bed
"It's Not a Crime to Change Your Mind"
SWIM remembers these lyrics in a song and applies them to when 'last call' for cocaine is announced. For SWIM, there was never a closing time, regardless. No matter what preconceived boundaries were set, rabid readjustment of mental stops and recalculation of obligations were the norm. Only the accursed/blessed combined exhaustion of both supply and endurance ever called a bewildering timeout in this insane game. The very last, last line of the evening, of course, turns into the first line of the new day, and so on.:crazy
Despite vowing to make it an early evening one night, SWIM then ran for 4days/nights straight, recalculating right up to the last minute, how long it would take to go shop for gifts, get home, pack and be back in town to board an international flight that same morning. Left SWIM less than 2 tiny hours and just freaking barely made it.
SWIM would regularly run a week at a time when managing the stripclub, literally living in the club 24/7, alone during the day behind locked doors, cleaning, repairing, stage decorating, arranging music sets, planning and constantly thinking on how best to present the show. And of course, come evening the gig was lit and the show must go on, customers to greet, money to watch and finnicky felines to attend to. Come Sunday morning, only the prodding of SWIM's DJ would finally convince a still reluctant SWIM to go home on his day off.
SWIM voluntarily quit the club to stop the madness, thinking that farm duties would regulate more sanity. Weather forecasts predicted a particularly hot and dry week that summer, perfect for baling some big fields of hay. SWIM promised himself to consume in an orderly and disciplined manner, realizing the physical demands required to pull off this massive undertaking of bringing in a field a day. Nevertheless, SWIM ran it around the clock again, culminating in Friday being the hottest day of the year, with the biggest field still to do. Now, SWIM had been up for 4 days and nights straight again, working each and every day, while chopping each and all night. Temperature over a hundred degrees(F) on Friday, SWIM's fifth day awake, frantically bumping between hay loads so as not to pass out from total collapse, but careful not to rail too hard and boil his brain! Unfreaking unbelievable. Even I was astounded at SWIM's rage.
As far as this 'stopping when you said you would' stuff goes, SWIM learned to never say when he would stop anymore, so as not to be a liar. ;)
spores101
27-12-2007, 02:18
SWIM was able to stop after enough was enough. sometimes you get to a point in your life where you absolutely know that if you keep putting these things into your body then it will ruin your life. He has been clean from Coke for over 6 months now. Good luck.
yeah...thats prety much how cocaine works...its self inhibiting for those that do not have self destructive tendancies, swim was reading a study (has posted it here some time before) of a 10year follow through of cocaine users, out of 80 only 14 kept using in a "addictive" kind of manner cocaine, (out of 14 most where freebase and/or iv users)
Swim has been told that some people can do an extra few lines after they intended to stop but that is about the extent of it. Unless there is a full on session with friends going on and the supply is still coming.
tigerdude
30-12-2007, 09:21
Yes and no. Swims way of getting his (or her) stuff is to drive about 30 miles to the country which is really far out in terms of the layout of roads around here (the drive is around 45 minutes). It kind of worked out that way because swim's friend moved out into the rural backroads and got a job along an interstate and her co-workers knew dealers in the area that were not in my direction. Swim's and his (or her) friend hung out on weekends and powdered it up! After a couple of months, swim began to notice a tolerance that was increasing very evidently; but the tolerance was not the only thing increasing -- so was the (ab)use. Pretty soon, swim thought it would be alright to do it at school every now and then. But then swim graduated from high school and moved to another city far far away from his (or her friend -- the one who got it from the dealer because swim was too nervous to talk directly to the dealer). So when swim moved to another city, he was in a completely different environment. So to sum this part of my story about swim up: Swim moved to another city after gaining a tolerance to powder, and using it more often, which also means a completely different environment.
Alright, so swim is at this new city and knows NO ONE, but he soon gets friends (some do drugs, some don't and only met one potential powder partner). Swim has had the intentions of quitting the "medication" (he he..) since the spring when he became more acclamated to the feeling and use, but had little luck due to little will-power. However, this new environment makes swim think he (or she) is going to buckle down and not do it again and get himself used to the idea that it is not good and that he does not want it.
It doesn't work. Swim has to go back to his hometown every now and then (once every one or two weeks), and makes it a point to visit his powder partner. The good news is that when swim is in the other city, swim rarely thinks about the powder.
So in conclusion, it is kind of half and half. But fortunately swim does not go back just for the powder (well once).
Hope this helps you in your quest to (well I'm assuming) stop use. I think the key is being in a different environment and cutting connections with people from the old one, which is practical for just about no one.
The_Writer
04-01-2008, 17:00
stopping isn't the proper question it's can you quit
That's when realization hit, it was a stupid, pointless, expensive and time wasting "habit". That's all it (crack) was... picked it up a year ago with new boyfriend, he waited till he moved in to fully introduce his habit.
Fun doing it with him, till he got too weird to be around and time was just chugging away with nothing to to show for it. Runner, swimmer, horses & pets dependent, let him divert all that away to be with him and the habit and that became all that was important. After one violent beating too many, got the courage to toss him, he went to prison and continued the habit without boyfriend. Now there was NO reason to keep doin, yet did. Inherited his dealer "friend", the evil temptress who would call and ask "are ya SURE ya don't want tonight, it's really goooood"? Here comes the cave-in. When one found oneself going out, buying, coming back and doing it while parents were staying in the next room at Christmas, something needed to happen. Coming home from the hospital a few months ago, the night he hurt committed his final beating, scoring on the way home (wobbling on crutches as "friend" did the buy). Couldn't even take the night off then. Realized it did nothing anymore, no effect except less $ in bank account. Wasted countless hours and hours just packing, pulling, packing, lighting, etc. Pointless. Stuff being bought was garbage... "Just got to redo it" What is this shit anyway then? What part IS real, sure it weighs, but it's junk! Plaster weighs, it's still plaster. Only kept doing because it was a habit, not a need. Days without, no physical desire, just mental. Only think about "it" when the evil, parasite calls to beg for a buy so she can too. She does not work except spending the day going from score to score by the mooch method. Delete delete delete! Delete temptress number from phone. delete backup people too! If they call to lure, pick a fight, fake bad reception, cops around, etc., hang up, delete incoming # again. A very long drive to cop, or buy supplies, toss supplies to impede this even more. Too much effort to find replacement implements. The best incentive ever...too lazy to support one's habit!
So so many hours wasted just sitting and doing the habit, can't even concentrate on movies, chores, pets, books, laundry. So pathetic. All for something that doesn't even buzz anymore. Hated being cheated so many times, that was THE final thing. Withdrawl from this shit is really zero, not a thing. Sometimes think "huh, going to bed at a normal time and never thought once of "it" till just now. What's that about? Why DID this occupy one for all these months then? Of course temptation will always be there. Watching Intervention on A&E is a wierd source of comfort, not trigger. Not saying it's a simple breeze, but now know it is a fixable problem without expensive rehab and therapy bills. Days go by, realize haven't craved or done. Days are still going by, parasite "friend" got the message! Delete her.
SWIM usually wants to stop fairly early if he has work the next day, however, if SWIM is having a great time with friends, it rarely stops when it should.
This often happens to SWIM, he'll take xx amount out of the bank and say that's it for the night but if he's having a good time and the stuff he's getting is good then that rarely happens.
someotherguy
22-03-2008, 11:21
SWIMs cocaine usage greatly depends on ease of getting it. someone who delivers and puts it on a tab is a big factor. SWIM is not in any great debt, but would deffo not be doing as much as SWIM does if he had to travel to a place downtown like SWIM used to.
Dammaged
22-03-2008, 23:56
*Smiles*........oh yes you can....and then when you've done that.....you can click your ruby shoes together, close your eyes and hold your fists tight and still hope there is a home to run back to. If I could have stopped whenever I wanted to...........it wouldn't have been a problem and I'd still be doing it.
There's no nurse maid here........and I strongly disagree with a lot of what this forum offers because it goes beyond simple information to deal with a PROBLEM..........I'll be here till they throw me off.......in the mean time:
I'll watse a little bandwidth....have a tune on me: http://members.shaw.ca/damm2001/Disturbed_-_Stricken.mp3
...ask SWIM to mail me SWIM recently quit coke about a week ago and is still very happy about quitting. SWIM would encourage anyone to quit this drug because it brings no good, trust SWIM. SWIM tried to quit couple of times cold turkey but just wasn't too serious about it, this time he is.
Does SWIM have a problem?
He said he wouldn't buy anymore for a few weeks after finishing his last bag...the next day his friend calls him saying he's gonna go pick some up with some buddies and if SWIM wanted any..SWIM was unsure so his friend told him not to get any and SWIM agreed. He gets a call back an hour or two later and one of his friends buddies did half his bag and wants to sell the other half...since SWIM doesn't have to go all the way to the south end of town or deal with any of that shit he just says "i'll take it" without thinking about it too much.
The very fact that SWIM was unsure at first and then could not turn down an offer is frightening...and makes him pretty damn sure he needs to stop before it gets worse.
swim loves coke and would spend every single spare penny on it if swim was a millionaire!
as swim isn't a millionaire; swim will continue to remind himself of the constant shit quality, the price and just how much better ecstasy makes swim feel for far little price :thumbsup:
KomodoMK
25-03-2008, 09:07
Does SWIM have a problem?
He said he wouldn't buy anymore for a few weeks after finishing his last bag...the next day his friend calls him saying he's gonna go pick some up with some buddies and if SWIM wanted any..SWIM was unsure so his friend told him not to get any and SWIM agreed. He gets a call back an hour or two later and one of his friends buddies did half his bag and wants to sell the other half...since SWIM doesn't have to go all the way to the south end of town or deal with any of that shit he just says "i'll take it" without thinking about it too much.
The very fact that SWIM was unsure at first and then could not turn down an offer is frightening...and makes him pretty damn sure he needs to stop before it gets worse.
If you question yourself about whether you have a problem, then you have a problem. I read that quote somewhere, and quite agree with it. It doesn't necessarily mean you have a full blown addiction, but is a good indicator or early warning sign that a problem is about to develop. SWIM would advise you to take it easy and try abstain for a while. But SWIM also knows that there is a huge difference between knowing you should stop and really wanting to stop.
Hope this helps...
it's ez to quit when a SWIM goes by a sack and sees the baking soda on the table....