View Full Version : swim quit using cocaine, but there are those days!
I'm no longer using cocaine, which is a big step for me. However, there are those days where I miss it sooo much!
Like when I wake up early in the morning for work. It's cold outside,
I'm really tired, my eyes have trouble staying open, and I think "if
only I had a couple lines of coke, the rest of my day would be great"!
Of course, a couple lines turns into 4, 6 ,8, 10, and I become
incapable of working altogether. I guess, these days, yearning for it
is more interesting than actually having it. Anyone feel the same way?
oh yes . . . coke does make things a lot clearer, happy funand managable doesn't it. That's why it's so fucking addictive
Sniffin Sunshine
03-11-2008, 02:33
It has been a year since swim used cocaine and yet every once in a while something, usually a smell, or being awake really late at night or early in the morning will remind her of how it was in the beginning and she will think about how great it would be to party with it one more time.. especially since tolerance is down.
and even though its been so long there are still those crazy dreams about doing TONS and TONS of coke ocasionally that make her yern...
but its a very mild temptation compared to how it was when she was using and now she can resist.
swim must say, even once you quit, the love/hate for coke never completely leaves your mind.
swim must say, even once you quit, the love/hate for coke never completely leaves your mind.
swim agrees! Swim knows that even tho he quit over two years ago, it only takes one moment of weakness, and *booom* thats swim...right back on it!
swim has not been completely clean...he has felt those moments of weakness, and buckled on two occasions since, fortunately realising how easy it was going to be to undo all his good work and managing to deal with it in a satifactory manner on each occasion :applause:
It's so much more of a challenge to stay off it....and a damn sight cheaper!!!