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Insights & Mystical

  1. Happiness, part one

    Happiness is a topic that keeps drawing my attention. Probably because my philosopher's mind insists on obsessively trying to articulate and understand what various things are and how they work (or fail), especially simple seeming ordinary everyday concepts like work, laughter, language, and, yes, indeed, happiness itself. And, again, typical philosopher, the more I think about something often the more confused and complicated they seem to get. Happiness is a special interest for me,...
  2. On the nature of mania

    People often ask what being manic is, and it's not a state that's well understood by people that haven't experienced it. To be honest I think it's probably a little different for everyone that experiences it, but I'm going to try to relate my experiences of it here. First off, it feels great. Really really great. People often have trouble understanding this because it is so often equated with being out of control, but the truth of the matter is you don't really feel out of control when...
  3. How much is too much?

    So I have been wondering this a bit lately, but when recovering from mental illness or addiction, how much is too much when it comes to getting back into the world? My mental health has been improving steadily for the last several months, and I often now find myself with plenty of energy and a desire to interact with people more than I have for the last few years. The other side of the coin however is that I am terrified that the more I do participate in the world at large, the greater...
  4. LSD changed my life. Im a new person.

    A few days ago I dropped acid for the first time. I have eaten shrooms before and I figured it would be something like that, so I was totally unprepared for what happened. Luckily, my boyfriend with whom I love and trust with all my heart, was there trippin with me, and I had such moments of pure clarity...I could understand why I react the way I do to life, and that I have the ability to choose at any given time what my reaction to something will be. I have a sense of self acceptance that...
  5. seeing threw a new set of eyes.

    " I once was lost,but now am found, i once was blind, but now i see"..... how did this happen to me? every song now makes such perfect sense. every vision now seems so clear. every color seems so much more vibrant. every word has so much depth. the wind,the rain, the sun light, the moon, the trees, the grass, every star, every insect, every animal. i have such a new found respect, there are no words for me to describe. appreciatte the little things in life, thats what...
  6. What does our biggest global religious institutions share?

    one thing that binds them together is.. their belief in the SAME God ABRAHAM worshiped. ISLAM JUDAISM AND CHRISTIANITY Are All funded over the same idea of creed. The OLD TESTAMENT and THE OLD PROFETS, They Are even sharing the same ancient religious location... The Old Jerusalem. so what seems to be the problem? the problem is and always was that these fundamentalistic and dogmatic groups always clamed to be the only ones that believed correctly. They disagreed so much...
  7. Freedom

    soon there will be no more freedom of listening, reading , watching,speaking or feeling.. fight for this freedom. no matter what. I will mind my own business, but our business IS MY BUSINESS. I finally got my ass out of my sofa. I just need to start running. Not away. Not to hide. But towards where I'm going to build by barricade. Close your eyes and see. look at my air castle. how beautiful it is going to be Come visit me in my house of glass Bring your elephants and dance...
  8. What is it to be a Human Being nowadays ?

    The sheeple of planet Tellus WILL NOT COMPLAIN until they realize that being DEAD is even more BORING than their lives was. Nowadays, as pain seems to be the best known of emotions, I have to ask my self:"What IS life really ?" Is it only the time it takes to die? just a quick trip from mindless euphoric conception towards the burning flames of a crematorium? Am I a Consumer ?, a citizen ?, or a Human Being? The info-leaflet never explained this properly. All it said was:...
  9. Armageddon

    If you are waiting for the Armageddon to happen, you will become dissapointed. prepare to survive the unraptured armada of revenging dissapointees, looking for someone to blame. when they're finished sending each other to the heaven they longed for. the peace they always preached, can finally be heard . the end timers have an eternity in heaven, to learn how precious love for life should be life is sacred created by love as fear of death is by ignorance tell me...
  10. What a difference a job makes

    I know I've mentioned that I recently stepped down from being a Manager at my company and took a position as a Business Process Analyst. This meant that I lost some money, am in a lower bonus band, and went from full time telecommuter to a full time commuting back to the office. It's been about a month now and all I can say is WOW! I'm much happier, feel more relaxed, and am enjoying working for the first time in several years. I'm not delusional. I know I have both mental health and...
  11. Tips and tricks for a psychonauts gathering of data

    The minds capable of so much Basically its like.. Whatever you perceive in your mind and whatever you perceive as REAL Will manifest into your actual reality Therefore the term "life is what you make it" is extremely literal Theres so many layers of realities and the thought of accessing them is exciting I find it highly beneficial to end the questioning of what is real what is not, what is right what is wrong Once you just 'take it as it is', clarity and humbleness is experienced....
  12. Ever wonder how all this insanity will end?

    As humanity is rapidly approaching the so-called "singularity", I believe that there's a need for us to understand and prepare for the world that is going to be. Some may have a very grim and dark view of the future, but I think we're about to become citizens of the world where peace and harmony become a standard way of living. For nearly 15 years, I've been studying and contributing to the fields of renewable energy, robotics, sociology, and anthropology. Alongside my formal studies and...
  13. The remarkable human ability to turn on a dime

    I was supposed to have shipped off for bootcamp around now. I was enlisted in the Marine Corps and had all my paperwork done. But around two weeks ago something inside of me I had been attempting to strangle erupted and roared out, "FUCK THIS!!!" I feel so damn free now. Like a massive weight has been lifted off my chest. I can grow out my hair, use drugs with reckless abandon, and become some sort of wild hippie creature if I so choose. More importantly, I am standing by the beliefs I...
  14. My Moral Dilemma

    So, a member of the forum suggested I write a blog about this, and I consider that a pretty good idea. I'm not particularly looking for advice, just want to document how I feel at this point in life and writing often helps me put things in perspective. Of course that doesn't mean honest opinions are not welcome. The root of this all? I am joining the Marine Corps, but first some context. I am currently scraping by here in the big city of LA, recently had a great job I loved burn...
  15. Flashback: just starting MMT and the friend I lost when I left the drugs behind.

    This started off as a thread reply, but it became so blatantly off-topic that I moved it here and it's now a sort of blog post. I've posted a lot about the end of my MMT treatment, but not a whole lot about what my life was like when I first got involved with treatment. I was a multi-drug user. When I was young and my body could hack it, I did the speed ball thing a LOT. The only drug I hated was crystal meth. I did one hefty IV dose and felt like I was walking upon a loud, toxic...
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